Our hands & the hands of God

40 Shades of Lent by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Solemnity of the Palm Sunday of the Lord's Passion-B, 24 March 2024
Isaiah 50:4-7  ]]+[[  Philippians 2:6-11  ]]+[[  Mark 15:1-39

As you all know by now, I turned 59 years old last Friday, March 22. For the second consecutive year, I have moved my personal annual retreat to my birthday so I can pray more, thank God more for his gift of life to me. This is one of my realizations in turning 59 years old:

"The more we enter the heart of Jesus
 where we find peace and fulfillment, 
joy and security, 
the more we also discover 
the dark and ugly sides of life.  
Darkness, pains, sickness, failures, 
and other forms of sufferings 
come to the fore when we are 
in God’s loving presence,
and vice versa."

The more we see and experience God’s beauty, we also see and experience Christ’s agony and passion within our very selves and among our brothers and sisters. These two faces of life ever present in our earthly journey are perfectly shown to us by today’s celebration called “the Solemnity of the Palm Sunday of the Lord’s Passion.”

What we have this Sunday is actually a twin-celebration.

Palm Sunday came from the liturgy of the early Christians living in Jerusalem in the fourth century who started the Holy Week tradition with a procession of palm branches that later spread to France and Germany where the blessing of palms was introduced. Later in Rome in the 12th century, the Pope began the tradition of commemorating the Lord’s Passion on this Sunday with a proclamation of that long gospel narrating Christ’s entry into Jerusalem leading to His Last Supper until His Crucifixion and Death. It was only in 1965 during Vatican II when these two celebrations were combined into what we now have as the Solemnity of the Palm Sunday of the Lord’s Passion.

The merging of these two celebrations sums up the mystery we celebrate during Holy Week as well as the mystery of our everyday life wherein we have the glory of Palm Sunday in one hand and at the other hand, the darkness of our own passion as a sharing in the Pasch of the Lord.

*Photo by author, Chapel of St. Francis Xavier, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, 20 March 2024.*

I have intended a play in the word “hand” there as I prayed over our gospel this Sunday during my recent retreat. As directed by my Jesuit guide, I reflected on the four gospel accounts of the Lord’s Passion where I found the word “hand over” used so many times.

“To hand over” is the more literal translation of the Greek word paradidomi used by the evangelists in the “betrayal”of Jesus by Judas Iscariot. In Filipino, it is ipasa and ibigay that are more picturesque than ipagkanulo which is our equivalent of “to betray”.

Now, look at how our Filipino word ipasa takes on a deeper meaning when we reflect on how Jesus was “handed over” first by Judas Iscariot to the chief priests who then “handed him over” to Pilate who eventually “handed him over” into death by crucifixion. Pinagpasa-pasahan nila si Jesus! And that is how evil we are humans with God and with one another, using our very own hands, handing them over by manipulating them for our own selfish ends.

Then Judas Iscariot, one of the Twelve, went off to the chief priests to hand him over to them. When they heard him they were pleased and promised to pay him money. Then he looked for an opportunity to hand him over… He (Judas Iscariot) came and immediately went over to him and said, “Rabbi.” And he kissed him. At this they laid hands on him and arrested him.
Mark 14:10-11, 45-46

As soon as morning came, the chief priests with the elders and the scribes, that is, the whole Sanhedrin, held a council. They bound Jesus, led him away, and handed him over to Pilate… So Pilate, wishing to satisfy the crowd, released Barabbas to them, and after he had Jesus scourged, handed him over to be crucified.
Mark 15:1, 15

This handing over of Jesus – pinagpasa-pasahan si Jesus in Filipino took its lowest point in Matthew’s account when Pilate “took water and washed his hands in the sight of the crowd” (Mt. 27:24) to claim innocence in the Lord’s death. That’s how dirty our hands as humans have become! How ironic and tragic that the more we wash our hands in repeatedly handing over our family and friends, colleagues and even country, the more our hands have become dirty.

This Sunday, Jesus is inviting us to examine our hands, to clean our hands so that they become His hands of loving service, mercy and forgiveness, kindness and understanding and care for each other and nature. Let us remember the lessons of COVID-19 four years ago today when we constantly washed and disinfected our hands to be more responsible with each other, with nature and with life. Our problems are often the results of things getting off hand, out of control or too much control as we manipulate everything even God, persons and nations through elections as well as habits and patterns for economic and social reasons

*“Ecce Homo” painting by Vicente Juan Masip (1507-1579) from masterapollon.com*

It is so different with the hands of God expressed so beautifully in our first reading from the Prophet Isaiah’s Song of the Suffering Servant who was fulfilled in Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.

The Lord God has given me a well trained-tongue, that I might know how to speak to the weary a word that will rouse them… and I have not rebelled, have not turned back.
Isaiah 50:4, 5

Here is a beautiful picture of God in Jesus Christ whose hands we have tied so many times as we insisted on our own ways, in seeking instant gratifications, in manifesting power through sheer strength. Here lies the beauty of God’s hands in Jesus Christ so opposite with our manipulating and controlling hands because His is of submission. Or passion.

The word “passion” is from the Latin patior that means to suffer or to undergo. It is related with the words passivity and patience – exactly like patients who just lie and wait on their beds, waiting for the doctors and nurses, for them to be healed and get better.

Passion here connotes passivity in the positive sense when we strip ourselves naked before God in order to be open to new possibilities like Jesus Christ eloquently expressed by St. Paul in the second reading when He “emptied and humbled himself, becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross” (Phil.2:7, 8).

*Photo by author, Chapel of the Holy Family, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, June 201*6.

In his Passion, Jesus taught us that true power is in weakness like him dying on the Cross. Now here we find something so interesting with the synoptics account of Christ’s death when “he breathed his last” (Mk. 15:37) leading to the faith of a Roman soldier, a pagan.

When the centurion who stood facing him saw how he breathed his last he said, “Truly this man was the Son of God!”
Mark 15:39

What was in Christ’s final breath that convinced the Roman centurion that Jesus was indeed the Son of God? The fourth gospel gives us the answer: When Jesus has taken the wine, he said, “It is finished.” And bowing his head, he handed over the spirit (Jn. 19:30).

Here again we find the words “handing over” but this time in the positive sense. Jesus never betrayed the Father nor anyone; he instead handed over Himself to God and to us. That is passion when we suffer passively in the positive sense because we love, we care, we understand.

For us to enter into the heart of Jesus this Holy Week, we have to enter into His passion too. That is to submit, to surrender all our powers to God through our parents and superiors by emptying ourselves of our pride to be filled with Christ’s humility, justice and love. Amen. A blessed Holy Week to everyone!

Ulirang alagad, Minamahal na alagad

Lawiswis ng Salita ni P. Nicanor F. Lalog II, Ika-22 ng Marso 2024
Ikatlong Huling Wika ni Jesus sa Krus

Ang ikatlong wika ni Jesus sa Krus:

Nakatayo sa tabi ng krus ni Jesus ang kanyang ina at ang kapatid na babae nitong si Maria, na asawa ni Cleopas. Naroon din si Maria Magdalena. Nang makita ni Jesus ang kanyang ina, at ang minamahal niyang alagad sa tabi nito, kanyang sinabi, “Ginang, narito ang iyong anak!” At sinabi sa alagad, “Narito ang iyong ina!” Mula noon, siya’y pinatira ng alagad na ito sa kanyang bahay.
Juan 19:25-27

Napakagandang eksena ang ating natunghayan sa ikatlong wika ni Jesus doon sa krus, sa gitna ng kanyang paghihirap at pagtitiis ilang oras bago siya mamatay. Naroon kapiling niya si Maria na kanyang Ina, ang “ulirang alagad” at si Juan, ang “minamahal na alagad.”

Kapwa tumatayo noon sa paanan ng krus ang dalawang naturang alagad para sa ating lahat ngayon: si Maria na sumasagisig sa Inang Simbahan, ang Katawan ni Kristo na ating kinabibilangan bilang kanyang mga anak, bawat isa ay minamahal na alagad ni Jesus.

Ngunit, nababatid kaya natin ang karangalang ito sa ngayon na wala nang halos nagsisimba ni nagdarasal at walang pakialam sa paghihirap ng kapwa lalo ng mga magulang?

Hindi ko po napanood (at walang balak panoorin) yaong viral na namang video diumano ng isang guro na kinunan ng kanyang mga mag-aaral habang nagbibitiw ng masasakit na salita dahil sa matinding galit. Maraming guro ang dumamay sa kanya at hiniling sa mga tao na huwag siya husgahan.

Sang ayon po ako doon. Nakakalungkot, nakakadismaya at nakakahiya maraming tao ngayon lalo mga nakababata tulad ng mga mag-aaral na wala nang kahihiyahan at pakundangan sa hirap at malasakit ng kapwa. Masyadong entitled na nga yata mga tao ngayon na tila baga umiikot at umiinog ang mundo sa kanila.

Ngayon ko lang nadama ng husto bilang chaplain ng Fatima University Medical Center ang pagkatakot at balisa, pagluha at pagtangis ng isang ina para sa kanyang iniluwal na sanggol na kailangang ipasok sa ICU dahil sa sakit at suliraning pangkalusugan. Hindi biro ang makakita ng bagong silang na sanggol na maraming nakasaksak na mga munting tubo para lang mabuhay. Pagkatapos paglaki ay lalapastanganin mga maglang at matatanda? Kung nalalaman lang sana nila pagmamal at malasakit sa kanila noong sila’y mga sanggol na may sakit!

Larawan ng “*Lady of Sorrows” sa triptych ng Master of the Stauffenberg Altarpiece, Alsace c. 1455; mula sa fraangelicoinstitute.com.*

Ang mga salitang binigkas ni Jesus doon sa krus para sa kanyang Inang si Maria at sa minamahal niyang alagad na si San Juan ay patuloy niyang sinasabi sa atin ngayon upang tularan ang dalawang naturang alagad niya. Araw-araw ay hinihimok tayo ni Jesus na sariwain kanyang ikatlong huling wika doon sa krus sa pagmamalasakit at pagmamahal natin sa bawat kapwa lalo na yaong mga nahihirapan at nabibigatan sa buhay.

Si Maria ang unang alagad at ulirang alagad ng Panginoong Jesus dahil siya ang unang tumanggap sa kanya at nagsabuhay ng Ebanghelyo. Si Maria ang unang nanampalataya kay Jesus kaya naganap ang una niyang himala sa kasalan sa Cana, Galilea nang mamagitan si Maria na tulungan ang mga bagong kasal na naubusan ng alak. Nanalig si Maria kay Jesus kaya inutusan niya ang mga tagapag-silbi noon na gawin ano mang sabihin ni Jesus. Higit sa lahat, si Maria ang unang nanampalataya na muling mabubuhay si Jesus kaya sa kanya rin unang nagpakita ang Panginoon noong Pasko ng Pagkabuhay.

Sa lahat ng ito, itinuturo sa atin ng Mahal na Birheng Maria ang kahalagahan ng kaisahan o union kay Jesus sa pamamagitan ng matalik na ugnayan o intimacy sa Panginoon bilang kanyang kasama o companion sa misyon. Kaya kung tutuusin, si San Juan ay katulad din ni Maria sa pagiging ulirang alagad ni Jesus kaya naman tinagurian din siyang minamahal na alagad. At iyon din tayo sa paningin ng Panginoon!

Damahin natin ang tagpo doon sa krus. Pagmasdan ang marangal pa ring itsura ng Mahal na Birheng Maria sa gitna ng matinding hapis. Nakatindig siya (nakatayo) at hindi naglulupasay o nagwawala sa lapag. Buong-buo kanyang sarili tulad ni Jesus sa kabila ng matinding hapis.

*Ang “Blue Madonna” na Mater Dolorosa (1616)ni Carlo Dolci. Mula sa Wikimedia Commons.*

Ito ang pinakamagandang katotohanan sa tagpong ito: mahigit pa sa mga luha at hapis sa mukha ni Maria, hindi maikakaila ang kanyang pagiging ulirang alagad ni Jesus sa kanyang taimtim na pananalangin. Pagmasdan na walang ibang ginagawa marahil doon ang Mahal na Ina maliban sa pagdarasal. Tingnan kung paanong magkaisa silang mag-ina sa hirap at dusa maging sa pag-asa at pananalangin kaya naman sila rin unang nagkita sa luwalhati ng muling pagkabuhay!

Sikapin natin ngayong panahon ng Kuwaresma at Semana Santa na muling malinang ating buhay panalangin upang katulad ng Mahal na Birheng Maria, magkaroon tayo ng kaisahan o komunyon kay Jesus na kung saan hindi lamang tayo nag-uusal ng dasal sa bibig kungdi namumuhay at nananahan kay Kristo. Tantuin nating mabuti na ang Dapat pagtayo ni Maria doon sa paanan ng krus ni Jesus ay hindi basta-basta lamang nangyari; ito ay bunga ng matalik niyang pakikipag-ugnayan at pagsunod kay Jesus na dinalisay ng buhay panalangin. Madalas tayo mga tao ngayon naisipan lang magdasal at magsimba kung mayroong problema.

Buong buhay ng Birheng Maria ay ginugol niya sa pagdarasal kaya noong bumaba ang Espiritu Santo noong Pentekostes, naroon din siyang nagdarasal kasama ng mga alagad ni Jesus. Si Maria ang pinakamagandang paalala pangalawa kay Jesus na ang pagiging alagad ay nagsisimula at nakabatay sa buhay ng panalangin, ng kaisahan sa Diyos kung kayat bawat pasya, bawat kilos natin ay bunga ng pagdarasal at kaisahan kay Kristo Jesus!

Manalangin tayo:

Panginoong Jesus,
tulungan mo kaming maging
katulad ng iyong Ina,
ang Mahal na Birheng Maria
sa pagiging iyong ulirang alagad;
O Birheng Maria,
ipanalangin mo kaming iyong mga anak
lalo na kaming mga pari na dapat
sana ay katulad ng minamahal na alagad
na nakababad, nakalublob sa 
buhay panalangin;
nawa katulad mo at ni San Juan,
manindigan kami kasama ng 
maraming nahaharap sa mga 
pagsubok at pagdurusa;
nawa masamahan namin ang
marami pang iba nagtitiis ng mag-isa,
walang kasama.
Amen.

Krus ang pintuan sa langit

Lawiswis ng Salita ni P. Nicanor F. Lalog II, Ika-21 ng Marso 2024
Ikalawang Huling Wika ni Jesus sa Krus

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda sa Mirador Jesuit Retreat House sa Baguio City, Agosto 2023.*

Ang ikalawang wika ni Jesus sa Krus:

Tinuya siya ng isa sa mga salaring nakabitin, at ang sabi, “Hindi ba ikaw ang Mesias? Iligtas mo ang iyong sarili, pati na kami!” Ngunit pinagsabihan siya ng kanyang kasama, “Hindi ka ba natatakot sa Diyos? Ikaw may pinarurusahang tulad niya! Matuwid lamang na tayo’y parusahan nang ganito dahil sa ating mga ginawa; ngunit ang taong ito’y walang ginawang masama.” At sinabi niya, “JESUS ALALAHANIN MO AKO KAPAG NAGHAHARI KA NA.” Sumagot si Jesus, “SINASABI KO SA IYO: NGAYON DI’Y ISASAMA KITA SA PARAISO.”
Lukas 23:39-43

Muli ay ating namnamin ikalawang wika ni Jesus doon sa Krus pagkapako sa kanya. Nauna niyang sinambit ay kapatawaran; ngayon naman kanya itong sinundan ng pangako ng langit o paraiso.

At iyon ay agad-agad na, ora mismo! Wika nga ng mga bata, “now na”! Hindi mamaya pagkamatay nila ni Jesus o sa Linggo sa kanyang pagkabuhay. Malinaw na sinabi ni Jesus kay Dimas, “SINASABI KO SA IYO: NGAYON DI’Y ISASAMA KITA SA PARAISO.”

Tantuin ninyo mga ginigiliw ko na sa ebanghelyo ayon kay San Lukas, namutawi lamang sa mga labi ni Jesus ang pangakong ito ng paraiso noong siya ay nakabayubay sa krus at hirap na hirap. Wala siyang pinangakuan ng langit nang siya ay malaya at malakas na nakakagalaw, naglilibot at nangangaral.

Alalaong-baga, pumapasok tayo sa langit kasama si Jesus sa sandaling kasama din niya tayong nagtitiis, nagdurusa, nagpapakasakit dahil sa pagmamahal doon sa Krus!

Ang krus ang pintuan papasok sa langit o paraiso.

Madalas naiisip natin kapag nabanggit o narinig ang katagang langit at paraiso ay kagalakan, kawalan ng hirap at dusa. Basta masarap at maayos sa pakiramdam, langit iyon sa atin. Kaya mga addict noon at ngayon kapag sila ay sabog at nasa good trip, iyon ay “heaven” dahil wala silang nadaramang problema at hirap sa buhay.

Kaya hindi rin kataka-taka na ang gamot nating laging binibili ay pain killer – konting sakit ng ulo o kasu-kasuan, naka-Alaxan kaagad. Noong dati ay mayroong shampoo na “no more tears” dahil walang hilam sa mata.

Gayon ang pananaw natin sa langit. At tumpak naman iyon kaya nga sa pagbabasbas ng labi ng mga yumao, dinarasal ng pari, “Sa paraiso magkikitang muli tayo. Samahan ka ng mga Santo, kahit mayroong nauuna, tayo rin ay magsasama-sama upang lagi tayong lumigaya sa piling ng Diyos Ama. Amen.”

Nagmula ang salitang paraiso sa katagang paradiso na tumutukoy sa kaloob-loobang silid ng hari ng Persia (Iran ngayon) kung saan tanging mga pinagkakatiwalaang tao lamang ang maaring makapasok kasama ang royal family. Kaya nang isalin sa wikang Griyego ang mga aklat ng Bibliya, hiniram ang katagang paradiso ng mga taga-Persia at naging paraiso upang tukuyin ang langit na tahanan ng Diyos na higit pa sa sino mang hari sa mundo.

Ngunit, katulad ng silid na paradiso ng hari ng Persia, hindi lahat ay basta-basta na lamang makakapasok ng paraiso. Alalahanin nang magkasala sina Eba at Adan, pinalayas sila ng Diyos at mula noon ay nasara ang paraiso; muli itong nabuksan kay Kristo nang sagipin niya tayo doon sa krus na nagbunga sa pagwawalang-sala sa ating mga makasalanan. Dahil sa krus ni Jesus, tayo ay naging karapat-dapat patuluyin sa paraiso. Sa tuwing ating tinatanggap ang krus ni Kristo, tayo ay nagiging tapat sa Diyos sa pamamagitan ng pagmamahal at paglilingkod sa kapwa. Noon din tayo pumapasok ng paraiso.

Sa panahong ito na wala nang hanap ang karamihan kungdi sarap at kaluguran, ipinaaalala sa atin ni Jesus sa ikalawang wika na ibig niya tayong makapiling ngayon din sa paraiso kung tayo ay mananatiling kasama niya sa pagtitiis at pagpapakasakit sa ngalan ng pag-ibig sa Diyos at kapwa.

Sa panahong ito na dinidiyos masyado ang katawan at sarili upang maging malusog, malakas at kung maari ay manatiling bata at mura ang edad, pinapaalala ni Jesus sa kanyang ikalawang huling wika sa krus na sino mang nasa banig ng karamdaman pati na yaong mayroong kapansanan ay unti-unti na ring pumapasok ng langit ngayon din sa kanilang tinitiis na hirap at sakit.

Sa panahong ito na lahat ay pinadadali at hanggat maari iniiwasan ano mang hirap at dusa, pinapaalala ni Jesus sa kanyang ikalawang huling wika na sa ating pagsusumakit sa maraming tiisin at pasanin sa buhay na ito, noon din tayo pumapasok sa paraiso kahit na kadalasan ito ay nagtatagal sa paghihintay.

Noong pandemic, natutunan natin na hindi lahat ng tinuturing ng mundo na negatibo ay masama kasi noong mga panahong iyon, iisa ating dasal tuwing tayo ay sasailalim ng COVID test na sana ay “negative” tayo, hindi ba? Noon natutunan natin yung negative ay positive. At iyon mismo ang kahulugan ng krus ni Kristo!

Para sa atin, ano mang mahirap, masakit tulad ng krus ay negatibo ngunit kung tutuusin, ang krus ay hugis positibo o “plus sign” (+) at hindi minus (-); kaya, ano mang hirap at pagtitiis sinasagisag ng krus ay mabuti dahil hindi ito nakakabawas bagkus nakapagdaragdag sa ating pagkatao na naghahatid sa atin sa kaganapan at paglago. Sa suma total, eka nga, sa paraiso!

Ang mga tiisin at pagsubok sa buhay ang nagpapatibay at nagpapabuti sa atin upang maging karapat-dapat makapasok sa paraiso at makapanahan ang Haring magpakailanman – ngayon din, ora mismo, now na!

Kaya, manalangin tayo:

Panginoong Jesus,
bago pa man dumating
lahat nitong aming tiisin
at pasanin sa buhay,
nauna ka sa aming
nagtiis at nagpasan
ng krus noong Biyernes Santo;
nauna kang nagpakasakit
at namatay noon sa Krus
dahil sa pagmamahal sa amin;
kaya, patatagin mo ako sa aking
katapatan at pananampalataya
sa Iyo upang manatiling kaisa mo
sa krus ng kalbaryo ng buhay
upang ngayon din
Ikaw ay aking makapiling,
makasama sa Paraiso.
Amen.

On turning 59

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 22 March 2024

*Photo by author, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, QC, 19 March 2024.*

Salamuch to all your birthday greetings and prayers. You were all prayed for during my five day silent retreat here at the Sacred Heart Novitiate in Novaliches, my “Bethel” and “Peniel” in the last ten years.

It was in Bethel where Jacob dreamt of a stairway to heaven that upon waking up realized “the Lord is in this spot, although I did not know it” (Gen.28:16, 19) while it was in Peniel where he wrestled with an angel that he was given the other name “Israel… because you have contended with divine and human beings and have prevailed” (Gen.32:29, 31).

*The newly reblocked tree-lined road of Sacred Heart Novitiate.*

God has been so kind to me to let me reach 59 – isang taon na lang may Senior Citizen Card na ako!

Last Sunday I had a long lunch with two of my former students in our girls’ high school in Malolos. It was a great feeling of being “reconnected” not only with Karen and Kweenie but also with myself.

God is our most important “connection” in life. To be connected, to reconnect with him is to be one, to be whole again with one’s self, with others and the rest of creation. And that is what a retreat is, a vacation with the Lord which is to reconnect with Him, to be healed and be whole again to find our other vital connections in life (https://lordmychef.com/2024/03/18/re-con-nect/). Here are some of my reflections; hope to help or guide you too to God.

*After sunset at the Sacred Heart Novitiate, 21 March 2024.*

If I say, “Surely darkness shall hide me, and night shall be my light” — Darkness is not dark for you, and night shines as the day. Darkness and light are but one.
Psalm 139:11-12

Very often, we feel disconnected from God and everyone, even from one’s self when there is darkness in life due to sins and failures or disappointments as well as when we are tired and feeling sad, even depressed, for varied reasons.

But, the grace of God is actually most bountiful when we are in darkness. And the irony of it all, it is in our darkness is also our light! It is the other side of that another irony I realized a few years ago that it is in emptiness when we are actually full. Kung kailan wala, at saka mayroon!

*From the refectory of Sacred Heart Novitiate, 18 March 2024.*

In His great silence, God never stops doing something in us and with us while we are groping in the dark. Many times, the very things we complain and cry about that brought us darkness are in fact the most beautiful things we can have and must have done in this imperfect world. Feel God tapping our shoulders, even thanking us that despite the darkness we are into, we remain faithful and committed, still caring and loving those entrusted to us, especially the children and the sick as well as those who hurt us or a burden to us.

Life is always difficult but many times we ignore this reality.

Have you sometimes wondered why life has become so complicated and competitive these days that even if you are not in the “rat race” itself especially when friends and family come to unburden themselves to us, we also get affected. That is when we overextend ourselves helping them, connecting them without realizing we are the ones getting disconnected too with our very selves and the realities of life.

When things are getting dark, stop and accept the fact we are tired or sad. That it is already night time and too dark to go out, that we need to stay inside or remain where we are. Let the darkness pass to avert disasters like breakdowns, feeling exhausted and depleted that we get sick physically and emotionally. When darkness comes, rest in the Lord and enjoy the stars and the moon above.

*The Novitiate abounds with calachuchi trees that one can smell the sweet scent of its flowers especially in the evening.*

I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works! My very self you knew; How precious to me are your designs, O God; how vast the sum of them!
Psalm 139:14, 17

Why can’t I accept that I am good, so wonderfully created by God? What a shame at how I always tell people, especially students and youth, to always believe in themselves, that our main problem in life is self-rejection which I am also guilty of.

Lately I have been questioning myself if I am really good at all: “talaga ba akong magaling at mahusay o ma-papel lang?”

*Tranquil afternoon at the Sacred Heart Novitiate, 19 March 2024.*

It is funny that as I cross into the threshold of senior years, I still have many insecurities in life, still doubting my abilities, of who I am.

One thing God has revealed me this week of prayers is how self-rejection is a result of lack of gratitude to Him. It is only when we are truly grateful to God can we accept, then own our giftedness as a person.

Many times we thank God for his “material” gifts to us that include our family and friends, jobs and career, house and cars and gadgets. Not to forget money and wealth, including fame for some. We thank God for everything except our very gift of selves. We are the most precious gift of God we always forget to thank Him for – our giftedness as a person with all of our talents and abilities.

Being grateful to God means seeing myself as God sees me His beloved child. Not the way we see ourselves before God that would always be in extremes, either we are too good like the Pharisee in Christ’s parable (Lk. 18:9-14) or too bad almost like the devil.

The more I am grateful to God, the more I cherish my personhood that despite my many flaws and sins, I am still loved by God our Father.

Gratitude is more than being thankful; it is entering into a deeper relationship with God and with anyone good to us. Ungrateful people who could not say “thank you” are the ones who do not care at all to others and their kindness. Whenever we say “thank you,” it means we not only appreciate and acknowledge their gift but most of all, their personhood inasmuch as they have recognized us in the first place.

*Photo by author, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, QC, 20 March 2024.*

This morning in our Mass, I felt so touched by God that tears swelled in my eyes twice. First when we sang in the entrance hymn “Buksan ang aming plad, sarili’y maialay; turuan Mong ihanap kami ng bagong malay.”

I think that is one thing I need this year, a new consciousness about God, of myself, and my vocation. Lately, I have been “romancing” death. It is not being morbid but simply accepting that reality becoming more real as we age. But, sometimes, I must confess, any fascination with death is defeatist in nature like when we start thinking of retiring early. I have always believed the priesthood is always seeking new directions in the ministry, in serving God and others but lately with all the darkness in me and around me, I just feel like retiring early, of just waiting for the end, whatever that may mean.

Lord Jesus Christ,
bring back that fire and 
enthusiasm in me;
give me a new 
consciousness of You,
of me, 
and of my ministry.

*The beauty and majesty of God at the Sacred Heart Novitiate.*

Tears swelled in my eyes the second time during the Offertory in our Mass as we sang Take and Receive which is actually the surrender prayer by St. Ignatius. It was the last prayer I recited before the Blessed Sacrament last night as I closed my retreat with a Holy Hour. It is my most favorite prayer but also the one I rarely pray after realizing and feeling its “existential” meaning during our 30-day retreat in 1995.

Try contemplating its meaning and you feel scared praying it, as if telling God, “not yet, Lord, not yet”: “Take Lord, and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding, and my entire will, all that I have and possess. Thou has given all to me. To thee, O Lord, I return it. All is Thine, dispose of it wholly according to Thy will. Give me thy nlove and thy grace, for this is sufficient for me.”

As I closed my retreat last night, I felt praying it again with the same conviction in 1995 after our 30-day retreat, in 1997 for our diaconal ordination and in 1998 for our presbyteral ordination. Once in a while I pray it too in high moments with the Lord. Like last night and this morning.

Thank you, 
dearest Father
for the gift of life,
for the gift of personhood;
Lord Jesus Christ,
You have given me with so much
and I have given You so little;
teach me to give more of myself,
more of of Your love and mercy;
take whatever I still have 
so that I can give more of You
in the Holy Spirit.
With Mary, 
teach me to be poor 
in You.
Amen.

Thank you everyone for your love, for your gift of self, for your friendship.

Ang kasalanang hindi natin alam

Lawiswis ng Salita ni P. Nicanor F. Lalog II, Ika-20 ng Marso 2024
Unang Huling Wika ni Jesus sa Krus

Ang Unang Wika ni Jesus:

Nang dumating sila sa dakong tinatawag na Bungo, ipinako nila sa krus si Jesus. Ipinako rin ang dalawang salarin, isa sa gawing kanan at isa sa gawing kaliwa. Sinabi ni Jesus, “Ama, patawarin mo sila, sapagkat hindi nila nalalaman ang kanilang ginagawa.” At nagsapalaran sila upang malaman kung alin sa kanyang kasuutan ang mapupunta sa isa’t isa.
Lukas 23:33-34

Kay sarap isipin at namnamin na ang kauna-unahang mga salita na sinabi ni Jesus nang ipako siya ay krus ay ang kapatawaran sa ating mga kasalanan. Hindi lamang doon sa mga mismong nagpako sa kanya sa krus kungdi sa ating lahat ngayon na patuloy pa rin siyang ipinapako sa krus “sapagkat hindi natin nalalaman ating ginagawa.”

Ano nga ba iyong sinasabi ni Jesus na patawarin “sapagkat hindi nila nalalaman kanilang ginagawa”?

Sa kaisipan ng mga Judio, ang “malaman” ay hindi lamang matanto ng kaisipan ano mang data o impormasyon kungdi galaw ng puso at kalooban na pumasok sa pakikipag-ugnayan. Ang malaman ay magkaroon ng ugnayan bilang kapwa-tao sa isa’t isa.

Nang sabihin ni Jesus na “Ama, patawarin mo sila, sapagkat hindi nila nalalaman ang kanilang ginagawa”, ipinaaalala din niya sa ating lahat ang katotohanang dapat malaman natin na tayo ay magkakapatid sa kanya, iisang pamilya sa Diyos na ating Ama.

Sa tuwing sinisira natin ang ating mga ugnayan bilang magkakapatid, sa kada pagbale-wala natin sa bawat tao na tinuturing bilang kasangkapan at gamit para sa sariling kaluguran at kapakinabangan ng walang pag-galang at pagmamahal, doon tayo nagkakasala dahil pinuputol natin ating mga ugnayan.

Madalas, iyan ang hindi natin alam kapag ating inaabuso ating tungkulin at kapangyarihan na dapat ay pangalagaan kapakanan lalo ng mga maliliit at mahihina.

Nagkakasala tayo at hindi natin alam ating ginagawa kapag ating nilalapastangan ating mga magulang lalo na kapag matanda na at mahina o hindi makarinig; kapag sinasaktan ating mga kapatid sa masasakit na pananalita at ating pilit ibinababa kanilang pagkatao.

*Larawan kuha nina Teresa at Luis sa Pexels.com*

Hindi rin natin alam ating ginagawa sa tuwing tayo ay sumisira sa pangakong magmahal sa asawa at kasintahan, kapag tayo ay nagtataksil o nagbubunyag ng sikretong ipinagkatiwala sa atin at tayo ay nagiging plastik sa harap ng iba.

Pinakamasaklap sa mga hindi natin nalalaman ating ginagawang masama ay kapag nawalan tayo ng pag-asa at kumpiyansa sa mga mahal natin sa buhay kaya sila ay atin pinababayaan, ni hindi pinapansin o bigyang-halaga dahil sa paniwalang hindi na sila magbabago pa ng ugali o hindi na gagaling pa sa kanilang sakit at karamdaman lalo na kung matanda na at malapit nang mamatay.

Ngayong mga Mahal na Araw, isipin natin mga tao na ating nasaktan sa ating salita man o gawa dahil ating nalimutan o kinalimutan ituring kapatid at kapwa.

Sinu-sino din ang mga tao na nagpapasakit sa ating kalooban dahil hindi nalalaman kanilang ginagawa? Manalangin tayo:

Ipagpatawad po ninyo,
Panginoong Jesus
aking pagpapako sa iyo muli sa krus
sa tuwing hindi ko nalalaman 
aking ginagawa,
kapag aking nililimot at tinatalikuran
itong pangunahing katotohanan
na igalang at mahalin bawat kapwa;
ipinapanalangin ko sa Iyong habag at awa
mga tao na aking sinaktan at tinalikuran
lalo na yaong mga binigay mo sa akin
tulad ng aking pamilya at kaibigan
at mga dapat pangalagaan;
ipinapanalangin ko rin sa Iyo,
O Jesus, yaong mga nanakit sa aking
damdamin, tumapak at yumurak 
sa aking pagkatao na hanggang ngayon
aking pa ring ibig paghigantihan.
Panginoong Jesus,
huwag ko nawa malimutan
na kami ay magkakapatid,
magkakaugnay
sa iisang Ama
na siyang sinasagisag
ng Iyong Krus na Banal.
Amen.

Silent connection. And disconnection.

40 Shades of Lent by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Solemnity of St. Joseph, Spouse of the BVM, 19 March 2024
2 Samuel 7:4-5, 12-14, 16 ><}}}*> Romans 4:13, 16-18, 22 ><}}}*> Matthew 1:16, 18-21, 24

*Photo by author, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, QC, 20 March 2023.*

How lovely,
O God our Father
that after reflecting yesterday on 
connections and reconnecting,*
we celebrate today the Solemnity of 
St. Joseph, the most chaste spouse
of the Blessed Virgin Mary 
who gave the name Jesus to your Son
in fulfillment of your promise to David;
always regarded not only as chaste but
most of all with gifted with the virtue of silence
the world needs so badly these days,
St. Joseph witnessed in his holy life
that it is in silence when we make
the strongest connections with 
one's self,
with others,
and with you, O God
because silence is the domain of trust;
The most trusting people
like St. Joseph
are also the most trusting.

Joseph her husband, since he was a righteous man, yet unwilling to expose her to shame, decided to divorce her quietly. Such was his intention when, behold, the angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream…
Matthew 1:19-20

In this world 
so filled with many voices
including those spoken by machines and robots
that compete for our attention,
the more we have become fearful
of silence because we are afraid of the truth!

To be silent is to be truthful
like St. Joseph who embraced
and welcomed the whole truth,
Jesus Christ;
grant us the same grace, Lord,
you gave St. Joseph to silently
in face and embrace the truth
that can be discomforting
especially when it it is contrary
to our plans and desires;
let us not hide in silence
our festering anger that
sooner or later may explode
that could scatter all our
plans and relationships.
Amen.

St. Joseph,
pray for us!

*See (https://lordmychef.com/2024/03/18/re-con-nect/)

Re-con-nect

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 18 March 2024

Had a very wonderful impromptu get together this Sunday with two former students from our girls’ high school in Malolos. But more than having a blast from 25 years we have known one another because Karen had been my student since her elementary school way back in 1998, it was for me a wonderful reconnection as Kweenie noted on our way home after our long lunch.

Reconnection.

The word remained in my mind last night until today as I began my annual personal retreat just before my 59th birthday on Friday. When Karen brought up the idea of having lunch just to see each other, I felt it was more than a coincidence but part of God’s plan for my retreat, which is essentially, a reconnection of the highest order.

And here are my random thoughts on reconnecting before my vacation with the Lord starts tonight.

*Photo by author, Baguio City, 12 July 2023.*

Connect.
From the Latin words, "con" for "with"
and "nectere" or "to bind",
to connect is to bind together;
to fuse, to make as one.
To unite.
Opposite of being connected 
is to be separated.
To be alone.
To be apart.

*Photo by Dra. Mylene A. Santos, MD, in France, 2022.*

God designed nature to be connected:
animal species gather together
as herds and schools and flocks
everywhere while flowers bloom
facing the sun and other plants
as twigs and vines extend so that they
cover everything while trees though
standing apart reach out to other
trees with their tops always bending
towards another tree.

How unfortunate 
that we humans 
who were ironically
the only ones created in God's
"image and likeness"
are the ones who tend to separate
always 
from God and one another -
beginning with one's self;
many times in our many "connections"
when we spread ourselves so much
as being scattered,
we get disconnected with 
self,
others,
and God.

Wherever there is disconnection,
there is also sin when connections 
are severed,
cut-off, and destroyed.

*Photo from en.wikipedia.org, “Creation of Adam” by Michaelangelo at the Sistine Chapel, the Vatican.*

God is the most vital of all
of our connections; He is in fact
THE connection because 
He is our life;
to be separated from Him
means sickness or death,
even damnation as in hell;
that is why Jesus came 
so that we may reconnect
with God, 
with self,
and with others.

*Photo by author in Baras, Rizal, January 2021.*

To be connected,
to reconnect is to be whole
again;
getting connected
happens when there is
acceptance of being separated,
when we are humble enough
to say sorry with those
connections we have
abused or taken for granted,
neglected and rejected;
reconnection happens
when we realize that
everything -
time,
place,
people,
and God
are interconnected
as one
big whole
that no matter how small
we may be in this vast universe,
we matter.
That's when we find
meaning and purpose
and direction;
 not far from that,
we find and experience
fullness
amid the
many brokenness.

Lord Jesus,
keep me connected
with you,
with others,
and with my very self.
Amen.

*Photo by author, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, QC, 18 March 2024.*

Lent is believing to see Jesus

40 Shades of Lent by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Fifth Sunday in Lent-B, 17 March 2024
Jeremiah 31:31-34  +  Hebrews 5:7-9  +  John 12:20-33

We now come to the penultimate Sunday of Lent before entering the Holy Week on Palm Sunday as we listened to the final installment of John’s narration of Jesus Christ’s final six days in Jerusalem before his Passion, Death, and Resurrection.

Our gospel today is actually set on Palm Sunday when Jesus triumphantly entered Jerusalem.

Some Greeks who had come up to worship at the Passover Feast came to Philip, who was from Bethsaida in Galilee, and asked him, “Sir, we would like to see Jesus.” Philip went and told Andrew; then Andrew and Philip went and told Jesus. Jesus answered them, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Amen, amen, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat; but if it dies, it produces much fruit. Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will preserve it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there also will my servant be. The Father will honor whoever serves me.
John 12:20-26

*Praying at the wailing wall of Jerusalem, May 2019.*

As we have been telling you, John’s gospel teems with many symbolisms and hidden meanings in the way he narrated events and scenes like when those Greeks asked Philip and Andrew to see Jesus.

If they simply wanted to catch a glimpse of Jesus, they could have easily satisfied themselves because Jesus never hid at that time. He had just entered Jerusalem, so warmly welcomed by the people, even by those Greeks perhaps. Most likely, they must have heard many things about Jesus that they wanted to go farther in requesting to see him. Hence, it was more than a request to have an audience with Jesus but something about their faith in him as they were pagans converted to Judaism.

We have to remember here that John used the verb “to see” to also mean “to believe” in his gospel account like when he narrated on Easter morning how Peter and the “other disciple” ran to the empty tomb “and he saw and believed” (Jn.20:8).

Keeping that detail on Easter morning at the empty tomb, we now understand why John never told us if Jesus met at all the Greeks requesting to see him because to see and believe Jesus is to accept and embrace wholly his Passion and Death on the Cross. This is why John jumped into Christ’s monologue upon being told by Philip and Andrew on the Greeks’ request.

What a beauty we have here because we are those Greek converts too, constantly searching, seeking to go farther in our faith in Jesus despite our sins. As we get older and mature, we realize how our days are numbered, that we will definitely die someday and meet God.

Lately I have been thinking why do we really have to be happy on our birthday – much less why greet celebrators a happy birthday when in fact every birthday is a step closer to death, is it not? I am not being morbid but it is the truest matter of fact in life. Life is a lifelong process of preparation for death. What comes next when we age? Death.

However, our faith in Jesus tells us it is not simply death as an end but a blessed death that leads to fullness in life, literally and figuratively speaking.

That is where the beauty of Christ’s parable of the grain of wheat lies, “Amen, amen, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat; but if it dies, it produces much fruit.”

We do not simply die in the end or even in the in-betweens of life through those failures and losses, defeats and wrong moves. We get better in life as we forge on.

It is the undeniable truth written in our hearts as God told Jeremiah in the first reading, that we are God’s, we solely belong to him no matter how hard we try to flee from him and disobey him in our sins, he would always find us even if we get lost. St. Augustine said it so well, “You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it rests in you.”

There is always that inner longing for God our Creator and End. That is why God sent us Jesus his Son as the author of the Letter to the Hebrews explained in the second reading so that through all our darkness and confusions, sufferings and trials, especially in those daily deaths that weaken us in our desire to search and follow him we may still find to have the strength and courage to forge on in wanting to see him by being with him where he is always – at the Cross.

This is the grace of this fifth Sunday in Lent: we believe so we may see, we die in order to live. Both believing and dying in order to see and to live are grace from God freely given to us even if we are not worthy at all.

The world tells us always that to see is to believe but Christ tells us that first we must believe so that we would see; it is the same thing with living – die to one’s self in order to live fully because “whoever loves his life loses it.”

When we read or watch the news, many times we feel so exasperated and hopeless with the world. Imagine a resort right in a natural wonder there in the Chocolate Hills of Bohol? Or, land developers covering swamps without any considerations for others and the environment? Or, the mess and wastage happening in our offices, schools and homes? Do not forget us your priests living far from witnessing Christ in charity and service?

It’s a crazy world! And in all these abuses, the more we have become empty and lost that is why in the process, more and more of us never stop to believe and see, to hope and pray like those Greek converts seeking Jesus, for only in him we find rest and peace. Let us pray:

Lord Jesus Christ,
many times I really do not know
where I am going;
I cannot see 
the road ahead of me
while many times
I wonder if I am really
following you and doing your will;
but at least, Jesus,
I am sure it is still you
whom I wish to see,
it is you I always desire
even if many times
it does not show
because this time
I am sure
 you alone
is my God,
my life, 
my fulfillment.
Therefore, like the psalmist,
"Create a clean heart for me, 
O God, and a steadfast spirit
renew within me.
Cast me not out 
from your presence,
and your Holy Spirit
take not from me"
(Psalm 51:12-13).
Amen.

Have a blessed week ahead, everyone!

Lent is facing the Cross

40 Shades of Lent by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Friday in tbe Fourth Week of Lent, 15 March 2024
Wisdom 2:1, 12-22     ><}}}}*> + <*{{{{><     John 7:1-2, 10, 25-30

*Photo by author, Theologate Chapel of the Immaculate Conception Major Seminary, Guiguinto, Bulacan, November 2020.*

Loving Father,
as we come closer 
to the final week of Lent,
the Cross of Christ gets clearer;
 preparing for Easter
 is facing and approaching,
embracing and owning
the Cross of Christ;
hence, grant us the courage
and strength to continue this journey
in Jesus with his Cross:

The wicked said among themselves, thinking not aright: “Let us beset the just one, because he is obnoxious to us; he sets himself against our doings, reproaches us for transgressions of the law and charges us with violations of our training… Let us see whether his words be true; let us find out what will happen to him… Let us condemn him to a shameful death; for according to his own words, God will take care of him.”
Wisdom 2:1, 12, 17, 20

Like Jesus,
let us overcome our fears
and continue to come to you,
to speak your words,
to do your works
amid the many people
"blinded by wickedness";
indeed, life is a daily Lent,
a passing over from every trial
because you are, O Lord,
"close to the brokenhearted."
Amen.

Two gems back on my screen

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 14 March 2024

I have rarely watched Netflix for over a year except on Sundays after lunch. Aside from my busy schedule, I find really nothing so special nowadays with Netflix. Even my folks back home rarely watch it.

However, three Sundays ago at the start of Lent, I felt like that kid in the 1982 Poltergeist movie wanting to scream “they’re… back” not out of fear but of sheer joy like a child when I saw NBC’s Law & Order: Special Victims Unit streaming! I had to forego my siesta and spent the whole afternoon binge-watching an old favorite.

The following Sunday as I looked forward to another afternoon of Law & Order, I found Netflix streaming anew another favorite, Midnight Diner: Tokyo Stories.

From then on, I have found another good reason to binge-watch Netflix once in a while even on weekdays. And what a wonderful daily trip to have between the world’s two greatest cities, New York and Tokyo!

I have always loved watching police stories since childhood. It was my first “dream” job – to be a detective like Jack Lord, a.k.a. Steve Magarette of Hawaii Five-O, Michael Douglas with Carl Marden of Streets of San Francisco, and the many cops of Hill Street Blues.

A spin-off from the original series Law & Order that was equally good, Law & Order: SVU is distinctly unique with its introduction that says,

In the criminal justice system, sexually based offenses are considered especially heinous. In New York City, the dedicated detectives who investigate these vicious felonies are members of an elite squad known as the Special Victims Unit. These are their stories.
Opening narration spoken by Steven Zirnkilton

The show premiered in September 1999 and has now become America’s longest running crime series now on its 25th season. What Netflix is streaming are the five seasons from 2009.

But, we love reruns!

The same thing is true with Midnight Diner: Tokyo Stories. Originally called Midnight Diner when it premiered in 2009, it was renamed to its present title in 2016 when Netflix took over its production to make it more slick perhaps and palatable to worldwide audience without losing its Japanese touch and flavors that make it so irresistible especially the Nihongo language and songs.

Like Law & Order: SVU, Midnight Diner has a distinctive introduction that promises it to be a series one should not miss.

When people finish their day and hurry home, my day starts. My diner is open from midnight to seven in the morning. They call it “Midnight Diner”. [cut to menu listing “pork miso soup combo, beer, sake, shochu”] That’s all I have on my menu. But I make whatever customers request as long as I have the ingredients for it. That’s my policy. Do I even have customers? More than you would expect.^[1]
Opening narration by the chef known simply as the “Master” played by Kaoru Kobayashi

Again, like our favorite from New York, this Tokyo series streamed anew by Netflix is a rerun of its 2019 season. You may check our previous blog on this show at https://lordmychef.com/2019/11/20/midnight-diner-tokyo-stories-are-recipes-for-troubled-hearts-and-lonely-souls/.

But of course, we love “reheated” food as much as we enjoy reruns in TV shows and movies!

Like old movies and TV shows, some food tastes better when reheated the second time. Even the third time like mechado or anything with sarsa (sauce).

We call it in Filipino, pangat for pangalawa (second) o pangatlong (third) init (reheat)! Actually, pangat is the simplest way of cooking fish boiled in small amount of water with tomatoes and/or onions or kamias.

Maybe, as we get older, everything becomes simpler in life. We do not want so many complications or “dramas” as we say. Simple food, simple drinks, simple evenings. Even reruns and replays, whether food or shows. Why, even people maybe because our bestest friends are those we have kept all these years that whenever we get together, we just rerun our conversations of the same topics when we were together 30 years or 40 years or 50 years ago!

Law & Order: SVU and Midnight Diner: Tokyo Stories are two great series like our good old friends. Both shows have got better as they age but always relevant because in their very heart is still the dignity of every human person who must be loved and respected always.

It is amazing that both series are set at two great cities of the world, so apart with each other in everything yet, it is always nice to find kind souls with warm hearts willing to lay everything down for what is true and good. And noble.

Catch them in Netflix. Even for the second or the third or the fourth time. They are television’s finest. Both are a gem to treasure.

*By the way, we are not paid by Netflix nor by anyone for this. We just love the series. Promise.