Praying & Dying with Jesus

The Lord Is My Chef Good Friday Recipe, 29 March 2024
Isaiah 52:13-53:12  > + <  Hebrews 4:14-16;5:7-9  > + <  John 18:1-19:42

*Photo by author, Chapel of the Holy Family, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, June 201*6.

The evangelists tell us that Jesus died on the Cross on a Friday at about 3PM. And they tell us too that our Lord died praying, exactly what most of the Seven Last Words expressed.

But from the gospel we have heard this afternoon written by the beloved disciple, we discover something very beautiful about the death of Jesus, that He was very calm and peaceful in His prayer unto death.

After this, aware that everything was now finished, in order that the Scripture might be fulfilled, Jesus said, “I thirst.” There was a vessel filled with common wine. So they put a sponge soaked in wine on a sprig of hyssop and put it up to his mouth. When Jesus had taken the wine, he said, “It is finished.” And bowing his head, he handed over the spirit.
John 19:28-30

When we are deep in suffering, in severe pain like Jesus on the cross, what do we usually pray? Most often, we pray that the terrible ordeal we are going through would finally end, would be finished.

And sometimes, due to desperation, we even pray for death, of how we wish God would finally end our life to be free from all the problems we are going to.

One of the things I keep telling to sick people I visit came from Meryl Streep who acted as mother of Winona Ryder in the 1990’s movie “House of Spirits” when she said, “Do not pray for death because death surely comes.” Sometimes in our desperation, we feel death is the solution to our problems and sufferings. But when Jesus died on the Cross, He made death an offering, a gift of self in love.

In the original Greek text, the word used to express Jesus Christ’s final prayer “It is finished” is tetelestai from the root word telos meaning the final end and direction. It is not just an ending but a direction too.

From the very start, Jesus was clear with His mission and how it would be accomplished. He has always been sure of Himself, of who He is. Notice how the beloved disciple repeated many times in his account of the Last Supper how Jesus was “fully aware” of everything that was going to happen to Him that He was actually in control and never left to the whims and powers of His enemies when He went through His Passion and Death.

Last night we heard how Jesus knew everything was coming to end that He washed the feet of His disciples after their supper. Most of all, Jesus was so composed and serene that He even gave bread to His betrayer Judas Iscariot during their meal. In fact in the washing of the feet of His disciples to His agony in the garden, Jesus calmly and courageously faced death that in the end, on the Cross, He had the upper hand that He was able to pray “It is finished” because He was never made under the power of death completely as He would rise again on Easter.

In praying “It is finished,” Jesus consecrated not only Himself but also all humanity to the Father so that we are able to bear and face death squarely like Him. Very notable in this part is how we find only in the fourth gospel how Jesus died by “handing over his spirit to the Father.”

Remember the verb to hand over is the literal meaning of the Greek word used paradidomi or betrayal. But here at the death of Jesus, handing over has no negative connotation but purely positive; Jesus never betrayed or handed anyone over to sufferings. He bore all sufferings and handed these over to the Father. That is true passion in the active sense when we let things happen not because we are helpless and resigned to the situation but we passively take everything in the positive sense because we have that firm faith and deep conviction that being silent, being patient, being persevering will eventually bear fruit for us like the death of Jesus that led to Easter.

Suffering and death thus are not resignation nor mere surrender but submission to the higher power of God to convert darkness into light, sadness into joy, and death into life. There on the Cross Jesus showed that true power is in weakness.

After the consecration of the bread and wine into Christ’s Body and Blood in the Mass, we proclaim “Christ has died; Christ is risen; Christ will come again.” We call it as “the mystery of our faith” because when we say “Christ has died,” we admit that truly, the Son of God went through all kinds of sufferings in life we all go through like betrayal, rejection, loneliness, sickness, hunger, thirst, and yes, even death. And His sufferings continue as we suffer more in this world marred by evil and sins, making us cry, asking when would these end and be finished.

There lies the mystery of our faith on the Cross that led to Easter: when we look at Jesus Christ on His Cross, we see our own pains and agony as God’s pains and agony too. Jesus joined us in our anguish and death so that we could experience all the more His immense love for us. Without Jesus and His Cross, we would never be able to bear or even face the many deaths we go through daily. May we recognize God’s immense love for us again this afternoon when we venerate the Cross and see it as the merging point of human and Divine suffering. Keep praying with Jesus who has the final say with death in Easter. Amen.

*Photo by Ka Ruben, National Shrine of Our Lady of Fatima, Valezuela City, August 2022.*

Pinawi ni Jesus ating uhaw sa Krus

Lawiswis ng Salita ni P. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 25 Marso 2024
Ikalimang Huling Wika ni Jesus

*Larawan kuha ni Dean Mon Macatangga ng Our Lady of Fatima University, Valenzuela, 2023.*

Pagkatapos nito, alam ni Jesus na naganap na ang lahat ng bagay; at bilang katuparan ng Kasulatan ay sinabi niya, “NAUUHAW AKO!” May isang mangkok doon na puno ng maasim na alak. Itinubog nila rito ang isang espongha, ikinabit sa sanga ng isopo at idiniit sa kanyang bibig.
Juan 19:28-29

Ito ang ikalawang pagkakataon na si Jesus ay nauhaw na bukod tanging makikita lamang natin sa ikaapat na ebanghelyo. Unang nauhaw si Jesus nang Siya ay makiinom sa babaeng Samaritana sa balon ni Jacob sa bayan ng Sychar sa Samaria (Jn.4:7). Sa tagpong iyon naganap ang napaka-gandang usapan sa pagitan ng nauuhaw nating Panginoon at ng babaeng Samaritana nauuhaw sa Diyos, sa pag-ibig at habag.

Mahirap ang mauhaw. Hindi tulad ng gutom na maaring idaan sa tulog. Tiyan lang ang kumakalam kapag tayo ay gutom ngunit kapag tayo nauhaw, dama ng buong katawan ang panghihina. Ramdam na ramdam at nanunuot sa laman at buto ating pagkauhaw. Kaya naman, malalim ang kahulugan ng pagiging uhaw na maaring hindi lamang sa tubig kungdi sa iba pang mahahalagang bagay kailangan ng ating kalooban.

Pagmasdan at damang-dama pagkatao tulad natin ni Jesus nang sabihin Niyang “Ako’y nauuhaw” higit pa sa tubig kungdi ang Kanyang pagkauhaw sa ating pagmamahal at pansin.

Alalahaning sa Ebanghelyo ayon kay San Juan, ang tubig ang isa sa mga pangunahing tanda ni Jesus bilang Kristo. Doon sa kasalan sa Cana nang gawin alak ni Jesus ang mga sinalok na tubig sa banga una Siyang nakilala bilang Kristo. Pagkatapos nito ang sumunod na eksena ang pagbisita sa gabi ng Pariseong si Nicodemo kay Jesus na noon unang binanggit ang tungkol sa pagbinyag o pagsilang muli sa tubig at espiritu (Jn.3:5). Sumunod na eksena doon ang paghingi ni Jesus ng tubig sa babaeng Samaritan kung saan Siya ay nagpakilala bilang “buhay na tubig” (Jn.4:10).

Sa pagsasabi ni Jesus doon sa Krus na Siya ay nauuhaw, Kanyang ipinahahayag di lamang ang pagkauhaw sa tubig kungdi higit pa! Kay laking kahangalan nang bigyan Siya ng ordinaryong alak ng isang sundalong Romano upang mainom. At madalas ay ganoon din tayo kay Jesus na nangakong “ang uminom ng tubig na ibibigay ko ay hindi na muling mauuhaw. Ito ay magiging isang bukal sa loob niya, babalong, at magbibigay sa kanya ng buhay na walang hanggan” (Jn.4:14).

Maliwanag higit pa sa tubig kungdi pag-ibig at malasakit ang kinauuhaw ni Jesus doon sa Krus. Noon at hanggang ngayon.

Si Jesus ang nauuhaw na misis at ina sa pagmamahal at kalinga ng kanyang taksil na kabiyak at mga lapastangang anak na walang iniisip kungdi kanilang mga sarili.

Si Jesus ang nauuhaw na mister at ama na OFW nasa ibang bahagi ng mundo na walang inaasam-asam kungdi ang mga simpleng tawag at texts ng pamilya na papawi ng kanyang pagod at lungkot.

Si Jesus ang nauuhaw na lolo at lola na pakiramdam ay nag-iisa at nawawala dahil sa Alzheimer’s o sa stroke na walang pumpansin sa loob mismo ng kanilang tahanan.

Si Jesus ang nauuhaw na kabataan naghahanap ng panahon at malasakit ng magulang at mga kapatid upang magkaroon ng direksiyon ang buhay, higit pa sa mga binibigay sa kanilang mga gadgets, damit at mga salapi.

Si Jesus ang nauuhaw na maaring katabi mo ngayon naghahanap ng papansin sa kanya, na ngingiti sa kanya at magpaparamdam na siya ay welcomed at, masarap mabuhay!

Huwag nating tularan ang mga sundalong Romano o ang babaeng Samaritana na naghagilap ng mineral water para kay Jesus na naroroon sa bawat taong nakakasalamuha natin.

Ang pinakamainam at masarap na tubig nating maiaalok sa sino mang nauuhaw ay nanggagaling sa kaibuturan ng ating puso at kaluluwa kung saan nanahan si Jesus sa atin na puno ng habag at pag-ibig. Mauhaw tayo kay Jesus dahil tanging Siya lamang makapapawi at makatitighaw sa ating pagka-uhaw.

Manaling tayo.

Minamahal kong Panginoong Jesus,
patawarin po Ninyo ako 
kapag pinapawi ko aking pagka-uhaw
sa kung ano-anong alok ng mundo
na kadalasan lalo lamang ako
nauuhaw,
tuyot,
at hungkag;
punuin mo ako ng IYONG SARILI
upang higit KITA na maibahagi
sa kapwa ko nauuhaw
dahil IKAW lamang
ang makakapawi
sa aming pagkauhaw
sa kahulugan
at kaganapan
ng buhay.
Amen.

Ulirang alagad, Minamahal na alagad

Lawiswis ng Salita ni P. Nicanor F. Lalog II, Ika-22 ng Marso 2024
Ikatlong Huling Wika ni Jesus sa Krus

Ang ikatlong wika ni Jesus sa Krus:

Nakatayo sa tabi ng krus ni Jesus ang kanyang ina at ang kapatid na babae nitong si Maria, na asawa ni Cleopas. Naroon din si Maria Magdalena. Nang makita ni Jesus ang kanyang ina, at ang minamahal niyang alagad sa tabi nito, kanyang sinabi, “Ginang, narito ang iyong anak!” At sinabi sa alagad, “Narito ang iyong ina!” Mula noon, siya’y pinatira ng alagad na ito sa kanyang bahay.
Juan 19:25-27

Napakagandang eksena ang ating natunghayan sa ikatlong wika ni Jesus doon sa krus, sa gitna ng kanyang paghihirap at pagtitiis ilang oras bago siya mamatay. Naroon kapiling niya si Maria na kanyang Ina, ang “ulirang alagad” at si Juan, ang “minamahal na alagad.”

Kapwa tumatayo noon sa paanan ng krus ang dalawang naturang alagad para sa ating lahat ngayon: si Maria na sumasagisig sa Inang Simbahan, ang Katawan ni Kristo na ating kinabibilangan bilang kanyang mga anak, bawat isa ay minamahal na alagad ni Jesus.

Ngunit, nababatid kaya natin ang karangalang ito sa ngayon na wala nang halos nagsisimba ni nagdarasal at walang pakialam sa paghihirap ng kapwa lalo ng mga magulang?

Hindi ko po napanood (at walang balak panoorin) yaong viral na namang video diumano ng isang guro na kinunan ng kanyang mga mag-aaral habang nagbibitiw ng masasakit na salita dahil sa matinding galit. Maraming guro ang dumamay sa kanya at hiniling sa mga tao na huwag siya husgahan.

Sang ayon po ako doon. Nakakalungkot, nakakadismaya at nakakahiya maraming tao ngayon lalo mga nakababata tulad ng mga mag-aaral na wala nang kahihiyahan at pakundangan sa hirap at malasakit ng kapwa. Masyadong entitled na nga yata mga tao ngayon na tila baga umiikot at umiinog ang mundo sa kanila.

Ngayon ko lang nadama ng husto bilang chaplain ng Fatima University Medical Center ang pagkatakot at balisa, pagluha at pagtangis ng isang ina para sa kanyang iniluwal na sanggol na kailangang ipasok sa ICU dahil sa sakit at suliraning pangkalusugan. Hindi biro ang makakita ng bagong silang na sanggol na maraming nakasaksak na mga munting tubo para lang mabuhay. Pagkatapos paglaki ay lalapastanganin mga maglang at matatanda? Kung nalalaman lang sana nila pagmamal at malasakit sa kanila noong sila’y mga sanggol na may sakit!

Larawan ng “*Lady of Sorrows” sa triptych ng Master of the Stauffenberg Altarpiece, Alsace c. 1455; mula sa fraangelicoinstitute.com.*

Ang mga salitang binigkas ni Jesus doon sa krus para sa kanyang Inang si Maria at sa minamahal niyang alagad na si San Juan ay patuloy niyang sinasabi sa atin ngayon upang tularan ang dalawang naturang alagad niya. Araw-araw ay hinihimok tayo ni Jesus na sariwain kanyang ikatlong huling wika doon sa krus sa pagmamalasakit at pagmamahal natin sa bawat kapwa lalo na yaong mga nahihirapan at nabibigatan sa buhay.

Si Maria ang unang alagad at ulirang alagad ng Panginoong Jesus dahil siya ang unang tumanggap sa kanya at nagsabuhay ng Ebanghelyo. Si Maria ang unang nanampalataya kay Jesus kaya naganap ang una niyang himala sa kasalan sa Cana, Galilea nang mamagitan si Maria na tulungan ang mga bagong kasal na naubusan ng alak. Nanalig si Maria kay Jesus kaya inutusan niya ang mga tagapag-silbi noon na gawin ano mang sabihin ni Jesus. Higit sa lahat, si Maria ang unang nanampalataya na muling mabubuhay si Jesus kaya sa kanya rin unang nagpakita ang Panginoon noong Pasko ng Pagkabuhay.

Sa lahat ng ito, itinuturo sa atin ng Mahal na Birheng Maria ang kahalagahan ng kaisahan o union kay Jesus sa pamamagitan ng matalik na ugnayan o intimacy sa Panginoon bilang kanyang kasama o companion sa misyon. Kaya kung tutuusin, si San Juan ay katulad din ni Maria sa pagiging ulirang alagad ni Jesus kaya naman tinagurian din siyang minamahal na alagad. At iyon din tayo sa paningin ng Panginoon!

Damahin natin ang tagpo doon sa krus. Pagmasdan ang marangal pa ring itsura ng Mahal na Birheng Maria sa gitna ng matinding hapis. Nakatindig siya (nakatayo) at hindi naglulupasay o nagwawala sa lapag. Buong-buo kanyang sarili tulad ni Jesus sa kabila ng matinding hapis.

*Ang “Blue Madonna” na Mater Dolorosa (1616)ni Carlo Dolci. Mula sa Wikimedia Commons.*

Ito ang pinakamagandang katotohanan sa tagpong ito: mahigit pa sa mga luha at hapis sa mukha ni Maria, hindi maikakaila ang kanyang pagiging ulirang alagad ni Jesus sa kanyang taimtim na pananalangin. Pagmasdan na walang ibang ginagawa marahil doon ang Mahal na Ina maliban sa pagdarasal. Tingnan kung paanong magkaisa silang mag-ina sa hirap at dusa maging sa pag-asa at pananalangin kaya naman sila rin unang nagkita sa luwalhati ng muling pagkabuhay!

Sikapin natin ngayong panahon ng Kuwaresma at Semana Santa na muling malinang ating buhay panalangin upang katulad ng Mahal na Birheng Maria, magkaroon tayo ng kaisahan o komunyon kay Jesus na kung saan hindi lamang tayo nag-uusal ng dasal sa bibig kungdi namumuhay at nananahan kay Kristo. Tantuin nating mabuti na ang Dapat pagtayo ni Maria doon sa paanan ng krus ni Jesus ay hindi basta-basta lamang nangyari; ito ay bunga ng matalik niyang pakikipag-ugnayan at pagsunod kay Jesus na dinalisay ng buhay panalangin. Madalas tayo mga tao ngayon naisipan lang magdasal at magsimba kung mayroong problema.

Buong buhay ng Birheng Maria ay ginugol niya sa pagdarasal kaya noong bumaba ang Espiritu Santo noong Pentekostes, naroon din siyang nagdarasal kasama ng mga alagad ni Jesus. Si Maria ang pinakamagandang paalala pangalawa kay Jesus na ang pagiging alagad ay nagsisimula at nakabatay sa buhay ng panalangin, ng kaisahan sa Diyos kung kayat bawat pasya, bawat kilos natin ay bunga ng pagdarasal at kaisahan kay Kristo Jesus!

Manalangin tayo:

Panginoong Jesus,
tulungan mo kaming maging
katulad ng iyong Ina,
ang Mahal na Birheng Maria
sa pagiging iyong ulirang alagad;
O Birheng Maria,
ipanalangin mo kaming iyong mga anak
lalo na kaming mga pari na dapat
sana ay katulad ng minamahal na alagad
na nakababad, nakalublob sa 
buhay panalangin;
nawa katulad mo at ni San Juan,
manindigan kami kasama ng 
maraming nahaharap sa mga 
pagsubok at pagdurusa;
nawa masamahan namin ang
marami pang iba nagtitiis ng mag-isa,
walang kasama.
Amen.

Krus ang pintuan sa langit

Lawiswis ng Salita ni P. Nicanor F. Lalog II, Ika-21 ng Marso 2024
Ikalawang Huling Wika ni Jesus sa Krus

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda sa Mirador Jesuit Retreat House sa Baguio City, Agosto 2023.*

Ang ikalawang wika ni Jesus sa Krus:

Tinuya siya ng isa sa mga salaring nakabitin, at ang sabi, “Hindi ba ikaw ang Mesias? Iligtas mo ang iyong sarili, pati na kami!” Ngunit pinagsabihan siya ng kanyang kasama, “Hindi ka ba natatakot sa Diyos? Ikaw may pinarurusahang tulad niya! Matuwid lamang na tayo’y parusahan nang ganito dahil sa ating mga ginawa; ngunit ang taong ito’y walang ginawang masama.” At sinabi niya, “JESUS ALALAHANIN MO AKO KAPAG NAGHAHARI KA NA.” Sumagot si Jesus, “SINASABI KO SA IYO: NGAYON DI’Y ISASAMA KITA SA PARAISO.”
Lukas 23:39-43

Muli ay ating namnamin ikalawang wika ni Jesus doon sa Krus pagkapako sa kanya. Nauna niyang sinambit ay kapatawaran; ngayon naman kanya itong sinundan ng pangako ng langit o paraiso.

At iyon ay agad-agad na, ora mismo! Wika nga ng mga bata, “now na”! Hindi mamaya pagkamatay nila ni Jesus o sa Linggo sa kanyang pagkabuhay. Malinaw na sinabi ni Jesus kay Dimas, “SINASABI KO SA IYO: NGAYON DI’Y ISASAMA KITA SA PARAISO.”

Tantuin ninyo mga ginigiliw ko na sa ebanghelyo ayon kay San Lukas, namutawi lamang sa mga labi ni Jesus ang pangakong ito ng paraiso noong siya ay nakabayubay sa krus at hirap na hirap. Wala siyang pinangakuan ng langit nang siya ay malaya at malakas na nakakagalaw, naglilibot at nangangaral.

Alalaong-baga, pumapasok tayo sa langit kasama si Jesus sa sandaling kasama din niya tayong nagtitiis, nagdurusa, nagpapakasakit dahil sa pagmamahal doon sa Krus!

Ang krus ang pintuan papasok sa langit o paraiso.

Madalas naiisip natin kapag nabanggit o narinig ang katagang langit at paraiso ay kagalakan, kawalan ng hirap at dusa. Basta masarap at maayos sa pakiramdam, langit iyon sa atin. Kaya mga addict noon at ngayon kapag sila ay sabog at nasa good trip, iyon ay “heaven” dahil wala silang nadaramang problema at hirap sa buhay.

Kaya hindi rin kataka-taka na ang gamot nating laging binibili ay pain killer – konting sakit ng ulo o kasu-kasuan, naka-Alaxan kaagad. Noong dati ay mayroong shampoo na “no more tears” dahil walang hilam sa mata.

Gayon ang pananaw natin sa langit. At tumpak naman iyon kaya nga sa pagbabasbas ng labi ng mga yumao, dinarasal ng pari, “Sa paraiso magkikitang muli tayo. Samahan ka ng mga Santo, kahit mayroong nauuna, tayo rin ay magsasama-sama upang lagi tayong lumigaya sa piling ng Diyos Ama. Amen.”

Nagmula ang salitang paraiso sa katagang paradiso na tumutukoy sa kaloob-loobang silid ng hari ng Persia (Iran ngayon) kung saan tanging mga pinagkakatiwalaang tao lamang ang maaring makapasok kasama ang royal family. Kaya nang isalin sa wikang Griyego ang mga aklat ng Bibliya, hiniram ang katagang paradiso ng mga taga-Persia at naging paraiso upang tukuyin ang langit na tahanan ng Diyos na higit pa sa sino mang hari sa mundo.

Ngunit, katulad ng silid na paradiso ng hari ng Persia, hindi lahat ay basta-basta na lamang makakapasok ng paraiso. Alalahanin nang magkasala sina Eba at Adan, pinalayas sila ng Diyos at mula noon ay nasara ang paraiso; muli itong nabuksan kay Kristo nang sagipin niya tayo doon sa krus na nagbunga sa pagwawalang-sala sa ating mga makasalanan. Dahil sa krus ni Jesus, tayo ay naging karapat-dapat patuluyin sa paraiso. Sa tuwing ating tinatanggap ang krus ni Kristo, tayo ay nagiging tapat sa Diyos sa pamamagitan ng pagmamahal at paglilingkod sa kapwa. Noon din tayo pumapasok ng paraiso.

Sa panahong ito na wala nang hanap ang karamihan kungdi sarap at kaluguran, ipinaaalala sa atin ni Jesus sa ikalawang wika na ibig niya tayong makapiling ngayon din sa paraiso kung tayo ay mananatiling kasama niya sa pagtitiis at pagpapakasakit sa ngalan ng pag-ibig sa Diyos at kapwa.

Sa panahong ito na dinidiyos masyado ang katawan at sarili upang maging malusog, malakas at kung maari ay manatiling bata at mura ang edad, pinapaalala ni Jesus sa kanyang ikalawang huling wika sa krus na sino mang nasa banig ng karamdaman pati na yaong mayroong kapansanan ay unti-unti na ring pumapasok ng langit ngayon din sa kanilang tinitiis na hirap at sakit.

Sa panahong ito na lahat ay pinadadali at hanggat maari iniiwasan ano mang hirap at dusa, pinapaalala ni Jesus sa kanyang ikalawang huling wika na sa ating pagsusumakit sa maraming tiisin at pasanin sa buhay na ito, noon din tayo pumapasok sa paraiso kahit na kadalasan ito ay nagtatagal sa paghihintay.

Noong pandemic, natutunan natin na hindi lahat ng tinuturing ng mundo na negatibo ay masama kasi noong mga panahong iyon, iisa ating dasal tuwing tayo ay sasailalim ng COVID test na sana ay “negative” tayo, hindi ba? Noon natutunan natin yung negative ay positive. At iyon mismo ang kahulugan ng krus ni Kristo!

Para sa atin, ano mang mahirap, masakit tulad ng krus ay negatibo ngunit kung tutuusin, ang krus ay hugis positibo o “plus sign” (+) at hindi minus (-); kaya, ano mang hirap at pagtitiis sinasagisag ng krus ay mabuti dahil hindi ito nakakabawas bagkus nakapagdaragdag sa ating pagkatao na naghahatid sa atin sa kaganapan at paglago. Sa suma total, eka nga, sa paraiso!

Ang mga tiisin at pagsubok sa buhay ang nagpapatibay at nagpapabuti sa atin upang maging karapat-dapat makapasok sa paraiso at makapanahan ang Haring magpakailanman – ngayon din, ora mismo, now na!

Kaya, manalangin tayo:

Panginoong Jesus,
bago pa man dumating
lahat nitong aming tiisin
at pasanin sa buhay,
nauna ka sa aming
nagtiis at nagpasan
ng krus noong Biyernes Santo;
nauna kang nagpakasakit
at namatay noon sa Krus
dahil sa pagmamahal sa amin;
kaya, patatagin mo ako sa aking
katapatan at pananampalataya
sa Iyo upang manatiling kaisa mo
sa krus ng kalbaryo ng buhay
upang ngayon din
Ikaw ay aking makapiling,
makasama sa Paraiso.
Amen.

Dying well is living well

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
The Seven Last Words, 07 April 2023

*Photo by author, Chapel of the Holy Family, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, Quezon City, 2014.*

It was now about noon and darkness came over the whole land until three in the afternoon because of an eclipse of the sun. Then the veil of the temple was torn down the middle. Jesus cried our in a loud voice, “Father, into your hands I commend my spirit”; and when he had said this he breathed his last.
Luke 23:44-46

Do you have a “bucket list”, of things to do before turning a certain age or before dying? Very often we read in social media articles of sample “bucket lists”, of things to do, things to see, food to eat before one dies as if these are the ultimate things or cities or food in the world!

I am sorry I do not believe in such “bucket list” no matter how good is that movie of the same title. It is all non-sense! Why spend so much time and energies of things to do before dying or turning 50 or 60 or whatever age when we should be making the most out of every present moment because we could die any time!

We will all die one day for sure. But, will we die well? Our death is our most wonderful and lasting gift to our loved ones if we die for them and for others, if we lived a fruitful life we can leave for them. The question we should be asking is “how do we live our lives meaningfully now in the present so that when we die, our lives would continue to bear fruit in the generations that will follow us?” Stop wondering or asking about what we can do in the future or the years we have left to live because that is highly hypothetical. It has not happened yet and might not even happen at all if we die soon enough. Get real by living fully in the present! Coming to terms with death is coming to terms with life. The moment we realize we shall die one day, that is when we start living authentically. And joyfully.

Jesus died so well on that Good Friday because he was able to surrender everything to the Father and for us all because he lived fully that is why he was able to surrender or give or commend his spirit. How about us? How sad that many times our loved ones left us with much pain and regrets because we never fully lived with them nor enjoy precious moments with them while still alive. Live fully in love and joy, forgiveness and mercy. Celebrate life daily. Life is too short to spend it in dramas and wishful thinking.

At the hour of our death like Jesus on that Good Friday, can we also give others and God our spirit of love and mercy, our spirit of joy and kindness? Or, we are still busy thinking what else we can do in this life? What if we are called back to God now, at this very moment?

Let us pray.

Lord Jesus Christ,
grant me the grace to live 
my life in you,
with you,
and through you
to the fullest in every here and now
so that if ever I should die any moment,
I am able to commend to the Father 
my spirit back to him
without regrets,
without pains,
without sin
but only with joy and gratitude
that my loved ones would 
feel and nurture
until we all meet again
in your kingdom in heaven.
Amen.

Thank you for following our reflections on the Seven Last Words of Jesus on the Cross. May you have a meaningful Holy Week and a joyful Easter! God bless you!

Love is perfection of life

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
The Seven Last Words, 06 April 2023

There was a vessel filled with common wine. So they put a sponge soaked in wine on a sprig of hyssop and put it up to his mouth. When Jesus had taken the wine, he said, “It is finished.” And bowing his head, he handed over the spirit.
John 19:29-30

Every Maundy Thursday, people await that most unique part of the Mass every year when the priest washes the feet of some members of the community. As a priest, it is one of the most humbling experiences I have had when a brother priest washed my feet on that Mass I attended in 2008 and 2021.

But there is something more beautiful to the ritual washing of feet. It is the context and words that accompany that: “Before the feast of Passover, Jesus knew that his hour had come to pass from this world to the Father. He loved his own in the world and he loved them to the end” (John 13:1).

The Greek word for the “end” is telos which is not just a terminal end in itself but indicates or connotes direction. Or fulfillment and perfection, not just a ceasing or end or stoppage of life or any operation.

When Jesus said on the Cross “It is finished”, he meant he had fulfilled his mission, that is, he had perfectly loved us to the end by giving us his very life.

At his death on the Cross, Jesus showed us perfectly in no uncertain terms his love for us, the Father’s love for us that he had told to Nicodemus at the start of the fourth gospel that “God so loved the world that he gave his only Son” (Jn. 3:16).

There on the Cross this was definitively fulfilled and perfected more than ever. Jesus did not have to die on the Cross but he chose to go through it because of his love for us.

Here we find the beautiful meaning of love. It is not just obeying the commandments nor being good and kind with everyone. Love in its totality is the perfection of life. It is our only destiny in life, our call to life from the very beginning. Love, love, love. Keep on loving until it hurts. Until the end.

Beloved, if God so loved us, we also must love one another. No one has ever seen God. yet, if we love one another, God remains in us, and his love is brought to perfection in us.
1 John 4:11-12

From that same letter, John declared at the very start that God is love which according to Pope Benedict XVI in his first encyclical is the most profound statement about God found only in Christianity.

My dear friends, only God can love us perfectly. Only Jesus can love us perfectly like what he did on the Cross. Human love is always imperfect. In our imperfect love, let us find Jesus filling up, making whole, perfecting our love for each other. Let us die in our selves sometimes when we have to let go with each one’s imperfection like when they make side comments. Forget all about revenge. Forgive. Understand the shortcomings of everyone. Accept and own the pains and hurts inflicted on us by our loved ones like our mom and dad, your former wife or husband, your friends, of those who have hurt you in words and deeds. That is being like Christ, dying on the Cross because of love.

Let us pray for those we love and those who love us despite our imperfections.

Lord Jesus Christ,
how I wish I could love until the end,
how I wish I could say too like you
"It is finished";
forgive me because many times with me,
the pains and hurts I have had are not yet
finished, even festering inside me,
eating me up, rotting inside me
that I could not grow and bloom in you.
Forgive me and teach me to forgive too
for it is in forgiving we truly love
perfectly like you.
Amen.

*Photo by my former student, Ms. April Oliveros on their ascent to Mt. Pulag, 25 March 2023.*

We enter Paradise in the Cross

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
The Seven Last Words, 02 April 2023

Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.” He replied to him, “Amen, I say to you, today you will be with me in Paradise.”
Luke 23:42

Every time we feel good, whenever we see something so beautiful, whenever we are with those we love, we describe the feelings as “like paradise” or “heaven”. For us, paradise is all bliss. No sickness, no problems, no sufferings, nothing bad, nothing dark, nothing unpleasant. It is all good. In fact, perfect.

And that is why heaven or paradise is! From the ancient Persian word paradiso, it referred to the innermost room in the palace where only the most trusted ministers of the King were allowed to enter along with his immediate family, From that came the idea that paradise must be so beautiful that the Greek translators of the Bible used it to refer to heaven as God’s dwelling. After all, our God is the only One who is perfect and supreme than any king in the world.

Recall that when Adam and Eve sinned, they were banished from Paradise that was henceforth closed until that Good Friday when Jesus promised Paradise – of all people – to a former thief!

Yes, Paradise is for every sinner ready to beg forgiveness, ready to claim Jesus Christ as our Savior!

And that is just one of the surprising things about Paradise or Heaven according to Jesus on that Good Friday.

See that Jesus never promised “Paradise” when He was freely going around Galilee, preaching and healing the people, when He was dining with sinners and tax collectors, when He was very well and strong.

Jesus promised Paradise when he was dying there on the Cross, not when He was strong and free!

See also how He said the words to Dimas, “today you will be with me in Paradise”.

Jesus promised Paradise at that very moment they were on the Cross, hanging and dying. Not later when they died nor on Sunday when He resurrected from the dead.

Jesus promised Paradise at that very moment they were suffering and dying, in extreme, excruciating pains never imagined by anyone, presumably with all the fears, negative thoughts and feelings that went with it.

And that is precisely when we enter Paradise with Jesus, too.

When we are suffering from our sickness and disabilities especially over a long period of time, when we are deep in pains in our heart for all the hurts inflicted by a loved one, when we are old and bed-ridden awaiting the final moment of death, when we are in agony for the loss of a loved one, when deep in trials and disappointments, or whenever we are so weak and dying literally or figuratively speaking.

That is when we slowly enter Paradise.

In a world where the most prescribed medicine is the pain reliever, where everything is invented to minimize even eradicate difficulties and hardships, Jesus is reminding us that we enter Paradise when we are with Him suffering there on the Cross.

That is the value and meaning of the Cross we always evade these days. It is not all suffering but also a foretaste of eternal bliss, of perfect joy and happiness because it is during our darkest moments in life that we get a glimpse of Christ’s eternal light, when we are transformed and made stronger and better as persons soon enough to be worthy to enter the most exclusive circle of all – Paradise – to dwell in the Lord with His angels and Saints.

Let us pray for those going through many sufferings these days, including ourselves.

Lord Jesus Christ,
before all these pains and trials
came to my life, 
You were there FIRST for me on the Cross;
You were there FIRST for me to suffer and die
on the Cross.
 Let me stay with you on Your Cross
so I may enter Paradise with You,
right now,
right here.
Amen.

One of the most beautiful front page photos I have seen in many years. Taken in August 2021 when we were in the midst of a surge in COVID-19 cases, the photo evokes Paradise, “right here, right now” while people were suffering in Jesus, with Jesus and through Jesus. Photo from inquirer.net.

Our sins, our relationships

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
The Seven Last Words, 01 April 2023

When they came to the place called the Skull, they crucified him and the criminals there, one on his right, the other on his left. Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, they know not what they do.”
Luke 23:33-34

Such is “the breadth, and length, and depth, and height of Christ’s love for us all” (Eph. 3:18-19) that right upon His crucifixion, Jesus begged God for our forgiveness. And that was not only for those who nailed Him on the cross on that Good Friday but also for us today who continue to crucify Him whenever we destroy our relationships.

In the Jewish thought, “to know” is not just of the mind but of the heart because to know is to have or enter into a relationship with others. Hence, Jesus begged first for our forgiveness when crucified because if there is something we must “know” above all is the fact that we are brothers and sisters in Him, one family in God our Father.

Every time there is a breakdown in our relationships, when we destroy our ties with one another, that is when we sin and know not what we do. And crucify Jesus anew.

We sin and know not what we do when we hurt those dearest to us – our mom and dad, sisters and brothers, relatives and friends – when we speak harsh words to them, calling them names, denigrating their persons as things.

We sin and know not what we do when we betray the trust of those with whom we promised to love forever, keep their secrets and protect them like your husband or wife, your children, your BFF, your student, your ward.

We sin and know not what we do when we lose hope in persons around us, choosing to do them evil because we thought they could no longer change for better, that they could never learn and overcome life’s pains and tragedies, that they could no longer get well from an illness or, sadly, because they are old and dying.

We sin and know not what we do when we cheat on those true to us, when we hide from those open to us, when we back stab those who believe and support us.

We sin and know not what we do when we abuse and use those people we are supposed to serve and protect, when we regard persons as objects to be possessed even if we do not know them personally.

Is there anyone whom you might have hurt in words or in deeds which you might not be aware of?

Who are the people who cause you pains and sufferings, who do not know what they are doing?

Let us pray:

Lord Jesus Christ,
I am sorry in crucifying You again,
when I know not what I am doing
like hurting the people You give and send me
to experience your love and mercy,
your trust and confidence
your kindness and fidelity;
I pray also for those who make me
suffer physically and emotionally,
those who do not know what they are doing;
help us build again 
our many broken relationships;
make us humble and true;
let us believe in Your love
expressed by our family and friends
and by everyone who cares for us.
Amen.

Photo above is a sculpture called *“Love”* by Ukrainian artist Alexander Milov he created in 2015 showing two adults after a disagreement sitting with their back to each other while their inner child in both of them wanting to connect. A beautiful expression of how we are all interconnected and related as brothers and sisters. This Holy Week, let us mend and heal our broken relationships, let the inner child within us come out and simply say “I am sorry” or “I forgive you” and most especially, “I love you”. Photo from reddit.com. See also our blog, https://lordmychef.com/2023/01/14/the-human-child-mystery-of-gods-love/.

Holiness is in the Cross

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Good Friday, 15 April 2022
Isaiah 52:13-53:12  +  Hebrews 4:14-16; 5:7-9  +  John 18: 1-19:42

*Photo by Mr. Chester Ocampo, ICS Chapel, 2016; sculpture by National Artist Ed Castrillo.*

Perhaps, today we can truly feel the meaning and gravity of our favorite expression when somebody looks so sad and gloomy, when somebody seems to have been totally lost: “Biyernes Santong Biyernes Santo”.

That is Good Friday for us – so negative in the sense it is so sad and gloomy, so painful and too difficult but, good.

Good Friday is so negative for us because it means death of the Son of God, Jesus Christ. Nothing would be more sad than that.

But thanks to this COVID-19 pandemic we have been living inversely or “baligtad” as we say. We would always pray at every swab test for the virus that we be “negative”.

Never has been thinking negative has become so positive, so good, in fact!

And it all began more than 2000 years ago at the calvary when Jesus offered himself for us on the cross.

That is why Good Friday is called “Good”: the cross of Jesus Christ is a sign not of death but of the good news, of the gospel of life, hope, and eternal life.

The cross of Jesus Christ is not a negative sign (-) but a positive sign, a plus sign (+).

We celebrate in the most solemn and unique way because the cross is no longer a sign of condemnation but honor. Before, it was a symbol of death but now a means of salvation. The cross of Christ has been the source of countless blessings for us, illuminating our path with light when our lives are so dark with sins and mistakes, sickness and disappointments. Most of all, the cross of Christ has brought us closer to God again and with one another despite our sins and past, promising us a bright a joyful Easter.

Yes, for some the cross of Christ is so negative: why display the body of the Lord everywhere in our churches and homes, bloodied and defeated, lifeless and dead?

See, my servant shall prosper, he shall be raised high and greatly exalted…for those who have not been told shall see, those who have not heard shall ponder it.
Isaiah 52:13-15

Many times in life, and we have proven this, God uses many of our “negative” experiences to lead us to more positive outcome and results.

Yes, we may be Biyernes Santong Biyernes Santo in sadness and fear, even anxieties.

But, we continue to pray and forge on with life’s trials and difficulties because we see the cross of Jesus Christ leading us to light and life, joy and celebration of his Resurrection at Easter.

In the Cross is found holiness. It is on the Cross of Christ when we are filled with God when like Jesus we are able to give up ourselves, when we are finished (Jn. 19:30) for God to start his life and work again.

I have not prepared any specific prayer this Good Friday. Just be silent and if you have a cross or crucifix with you now, let us all kneel and thank God in giving us Jesus Christ who brought out so many positive things in our lives out of the many negative experiences we have had lately in life. Amen.

Images of COVID-19, Images of Hope, Part 2

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 09 April 2021

*Photo by author after celebrating “private Mass” first day of lockdown last year, 18 March 2020.*

The reality – and gravity – of the lockdown hit me most that Wednesday morning when I celebrated Mass alone. Without the usual faces and voices of our regular Mass goers who greeted me daily upon opening our church door since I came to my former parish in 2011, I just felt something so unique.

And special.

It was as if Jesus was making some “lambing” (tender moments) with me as his priest.

For so long, I have been celebrating Mass on weekdays with at least five people present that there were times it had become mechanical like a routine, sometimes even like a “show” that it has to be good so that I look good, sound good, and everybody feels good.

But on that first day of the lockdown, as I prepared everything from removing the altar cover to bringing out the books and sacred vessels to celebrating “alone” with some birds keeping me company, I somehow felt Jesus most truly present.

Just him and me, at his altar, in his church.

*Photo by author, two birds after my private Mass during the lockdown last year.*

That was how I realized deep within me the beauty and sanctity of the Holy Mass not in the external things we see and hear but most of all in my intimacy and union with Jesus Christ as his priest.

With or without the congregation, every Holy Mass is the summit of the priest’s life and very existence because that is where his union in Jesus Christ our Eternal Priest is most true.

The way the priest celebrates the Mass – his disposition, his attitude, the way he looks and keep things in order – all indicate his oneness with Jesus Christ. Liturgy flows from the heart of the priest and from that springs our social action and involvement.

How sad when some priests has made the lockdown an excuse not to celebrate the Mass at all.

In depriving himself of the essential union with the Lord and Master, in effect he has deprived his flock the much needed strength from the Good Shepherd.

Even without the pictures and videos of the priest celebrating the Mass sine populo (without the people), that is the most wonderful and most treasured image of COVID-19 only God sees because it is the most sublime image of his Son Jesus Christ present amid this pandemic.

Every word in the Lectionary and the Sacramentary, every moment of that private Mass during the lockdown was like a “cosmic experience” where the eternal and the temporal converge as if time stands still, with these words echoing in the silence of the universe within me:

"...you never cease  to gather a people to yourself,
so that from the rising of the sun to its setting 
a pure sacrifice may be offered to your name."
(Eucharistic Prayer III)

Images of COVID-19,
Images of Hope,
Images of Christ

Two Sundays after the lockdown last year came the Holy Week ushered in by Palm Sunday when we went around the parish blessing the palms and fronds of people who have gathered on the streets after our announcement in Facebook and online Mass.

Skies were overcast that morning that we decided to visit first the other end of our parish, Purok Gulod, where we experienced rains and saw the beautiful rainbow the other Sunday.

Nobody saw the lockdown coming. Most of the people did not have the ready-made palms and instead had branches of leaves and fronds available in their surroundings which we blessed while on board our borrowed Ford F-150 after the Mass that morning attended by a few parish volunteers.

But the most touching images of COVID-19 that Holy Week last year happened on the Good Friday procession of the Santo Entierro we have mounted on a truck, brought around the parish after the Veneration of the Cross at 3PM.

From images of COVID-19 as images of hope, the sights have transformed into images of Christ suffering and dead among the people who knelt and prayed while others cried on the streets during procession.

Since it was a Good Friday when there was no holy water, I brought the crucifix with which to bless the people not only on the streets but also those in their vehicles passing by during the procession.

It was very edifying.

How I felt Jesus described in the gospel while going around preaching the good news to all towns and villages:

At the sight of the crowds,
his heart was moved with pity for them
because they were troubled and abandoned,
like sheep without a shepherd.
(Matthew 9:36)

*Passing through Purok Gulod where people lighted candles too.*

*With Kuya Ver sounding the matraca to alert the people…*

With Kuya Leonardo the caretaker of the Santo Entierro. Since I came there in 2011, he always brought along the children from their Purok Gitna to pray the Rosary aloud. After each mystery, we would sing some religious songs with “Kristo” as their favorite, singing in unison, “Kristo, Kristo bakit minsan ka lang nakikilala…”

I can still remember my short homily during that Good Friday’s Veneration of the Cross: I told the people that while we were so sad with what was happening due to the pandemic, Jesus was surely more sad with what was going on in the world, in our parish community.

It was a very meaningful Good Friday after all when as the sun set, God reassured me anew and I think everybody else in our parish that we were not alone. We have him as company, consoling us in this time of the pandemic with the beautiful sights of everyone out in the streets praying.

Yes, they are images of COVID-19 but also images of hope.

Most of all, images of Christ among us, suffering and dying first among us in our community during the pandemic.

Join us again on Monday with more images of COVID-19 as images of hope and images of Christ risen among us!

Have a blessed weekend, everyone!

*Photos by Ms. Ria de Vera and Ms. Anne Ramos.