Our imperfect love: a Maundy Thursday reflection

Quiet Storm by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 17 April 2025

*Photo by author, Sacred heart Novitiate, Novaliches, QC, 17 March 2025.*

I have always loved Thursday since my first job in 1986 at GMA-7 News and Public Affairs. It was the day-off given to me by our office because I have to write news for our radio stations DZBB-AM and DWLS-FM even on Saturdays and cover news for television on Sundays.

After resigning from my job to enter the seminary in 1991 and got ordained as priest in 1998, I still chose Thursday as my day off from the ministry.

The reason for this is from a news I have found from the wires of United Press International during my GMA days that reported the findings by researchers in a US university that people are more kind on Thursday. According to the report which I used in our two radio stations, people are normally grouchy on Monday because of hangover from the weekend. They only start working on Tuesday, getting so tired on Wednesday, the two most toxic days in the week. Friday is TGIF when employees shelve their work in preparation for the weekend.

It is only on Thursday when people are most human and kind as they wanted to get everything done before TGIF. Hence, it is also the best day in the week to ask for a raise or to ask for favors from anyone. It is also on Thursdays when traffic is lighter because people are more relaxed, not so stressed out than the other days of weekday.

*Photo from wikipediacommons.org of Christ’s washing of feet of Apostles at Monreale Cathedral in Palermo, Italy*.

Perhaps it is no coincidence at all, in fact truly a part of the mystery of Jesus Christ’s Incarnation, i.e., his becoming human like us in everything except sin that he gave us his new commandment during their last supper also on a Thursday.

“I give you a new commandment: love one another. As I have loved you, so you also should love one another. This is how all will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another” (John 13:34-35).

This is the reason Holy Thursday is called Maundy Thursday from the Latin word mandatum or commandment when Jesus gave us his commandment of love.

Love is the only thing we all have to do in life. This love is expressed in our love for God through one another. That is why Jesus clarified that during his ministry: love of God is always expressed in our love for one another. Love as a commandment is like a face with two cheeks always together. Isang mukha, dalawang pisngi.

Every time we sin, it is not only a breaking of a law of God or human but most of all a refusal to love, a refusal to obey Christ’s commandment to love. Our Tagalog word for sin says it all: kasalanan from the root word sala which is “to miss” or “to fail”. Every sin – a kasalanan – is a failure, a missing (sala) of our one task which is to love. Every time we sin, we become less of a loving person.

It is indeed a very tall order from the Lord, to love like the way he loves us.

So when he had washed their feet and put his garments back on and reclined at table again, he said to them, “Do you realize what I have done for you? You call me ‘teacher’ and ‘master’, and rightly so, for indeed I am. If I, therefore, the master ands teacher, have washed your feet, you ought to wash one another’s feet. I have given you a model to follow, so that as I have done for you, you shouild also do” (John 13:12-15).

However, Jesus is not the stiff nor strict at all in demanding that we totally be like him right away in our love for one another. All he asks us is to try, to persevere in his love. He knows very well that our love is imperfect, that only him can love us perfectly.

Many times we complain (rightly so!) as we get hurt emotionally, physically and even spiritually from people we look up to like priests and teachers and to those supposed to love us most like parents and siblings and friends.

It is part of the mystery of life and of love specifically that the ones we love most are the ones we hurt most too and vice versa. That pain is from that love that ironically fails always. And that is because we are not God. Our love is always imperfect. We need to have some room within us for others’ sins and failures.

*Photo by author, last supper scene of our youth’s senakulo, 15 April 2025.*

We are all imperfect that is why our love is also imperfect. There are times we think the love we share or give is the very best but to our beloved, it could be misconstrued as not love at all like parents being too strict with their children. There are times when we think our beloved would love our gifts as expression of our love but unknown to us they were expecting something else.

Only God can love us perfectly. That is the love of Jesus Christ for us on the Cross so vividly portrayed in his last supper on Holy Thursday evening when he washed the feet of his disciples.

Jesus washed the disciples’ feet because he knew they would get dirty again. And that would need constant washing by those he would leave behind, including us. To wash another’s feet is the highest or deepest form and expression of love because it is an imitation of Jesus Christ.

Imagine how Jesus bowed down to each of the Twelve that Holy Thursday evening. Every day, Jesus does that to us too!

Normally, we look up to God in the heavens to pray, to beg his mercy, to ask for his favors, to praise and thank him. Jesus reversed this at his last supper: with him washing our feet, Jesus is the one looking up to us mere mortals and sinners?!

That is the love of Christ for us he proved the following Good Friday when he plunged himself to the lowest point of life, of dying on the Cross because of his immense love for each of us that led to his Resurrection at Easter.

At the start of the Mass of the Lord’s Supper this afternoon before sundown, the rubrics instructs that “the tabernacle should be entirely empty, but a sufficient amount of bread should be consecrated in this Mass for the Communion of the Clergy and the people on this and the following day.”

This is a beautiful reminder too for us as we come for the celebration of Jesus Christ’s supper and sacrifice, we too must empty ourselves of our pride, to accept our own imperfections in order to have some room for others also imperfect just like us. Let us empty ourselves of our sins for us to be filled with Christ’s love and mercy, kindness and forgiveness.

This Maundy Thursday, let us reflect on how deep is our love for Christ and for one another. Look at your feet and admit how difficult it is to even wash our own feet. Whose feet do not get dirty in this life’s journey? Everyone does. Let’s admit that and start helping each other in washing our feet. That is love. We do not stop loving because that is all we have to do in life and afterlife. Amen.

Halik Judas, halik ng pagkakasundo

Lawiswis ng Salita ni P. Nicanor F. Lalog II, Ika-16 ng Abril 2025

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda, Canyon Woods Resort, Batangas, 15 Marso 2025*

Tinaguriang Spy Wednesday o Gabi ng mga Taksil itong Miyerkules Santo dahil sa gabing ito nakipagkasundo si Judas Iskariote sa mga punong pari na ipagkanulo niya si Jesus kapalit ng tatlumpung piraso ng pilak.

At gayon nga ang nangyari noong Huwebes Santo pagkatapos ng Huling Hapunan, pinuntahan ni Judas ang Panginoon sa halamanan ng Gethsemane at doon hinalikan bilang hudyat ng pagkakanulo sa Kanya.

Kaya ang babala sa halik Judas.

*Ang halik ni Judas kay Jesus, isang eskultura ni Ignazio Jacometti noong 1854 sa kapilya ni San Lorenzo sa Saint John Lateran Church sa Roma. Mula sa GettyImages ng iStock photos*.

Marahil ay minsan o ilang ulit din tayo nakalasap ng “halik Judas” sa mga akala nating kaibigan at kakampi. Ngunit aminin din natin ang ilang pagkakataon na tayo ay nag-Judas sa mga minamahal at nagmamahal sa atin.

Ngayong Miyerkules Santo, huwag lang natin isipin mga nagkanulo sa atin kungdi mga pagkakataong nagtraydor din tayo katulad ni Judas Iscariote.

Ngayong Miyerkules Santo, aminin din natin ang maraming pagkakataon na ang ating pagka-Judas ay sadyang tunay at sagad katulad ni Judas Iscariote na kapos sa katapatan at pagtitiwala sa habag at awa ng Panginoong Jesu-Kristo.

Nang makita ni Judas na si Jesus ay hinatulang mamatay, nagsisi siya at isinauli sa mga punong saserdote at sa matatanda ng bayan ang tatlumpung salaping pilak. Sinabi niya, “Nagkasala ako! Ipinagkanulo ko ang taong walang sala.” “Ano ang pakialam namin? Bahala ka!” sagot nila. Inihagis ni Judas ang mga salaping pilak sa loob ng templo saka siya umalis at nagbigti (Mateo 27:3-5).

Mahirap sagutin kung nasaan na nga ba ngayon si Judas Iscariote. Pinatawad kaya siya ng Diyos gayong siya ay nagsisi naman? Mahirap itong sagutin kasi nga ay nagpakamatay siya sa pamamagitan ng pagbibigti kaya tila kulang o hindi taos ang kanyang pagsisisi.

At iyan ang isang nakakatakot na katotohanan sa ating lahat ngayon, lalo na sa aming mga pari ng Simbahan.

Hindi po natin hinuhusgahan ang nag-viral na video ng isang pari na nagpapalabas ng tindera ng palaspas noong Linggo.

Nakakalungkot ang pangyayari. At masakit ang kuwento na minura pala ng vendor si Father kaya siya ay uminit ang ulo at hindi nakapagpigil sa pagpapalabas ng mga nagtitinda sa patio.

Inaamin ko po na madaling magsalita ngayong tapos na pangyayari ng kung ano nga ba dapat ang dinawa ni Father. Mas malamang pa nga siguro, ilan sa amin ay ganoon din ang magiging tugon at magviviral. Ngunit hindi po ito paghuhusga o pagbabatikos kungdi pagninilay sa mga nangyari.

Ang problema sa atin – lalo na sa aming mga pari at alagad ng Simbahan – hindi rin taos ang pagsisisi sa mga kasalanan at kamalian katulad ni Judas Iscariote.

Tama ang ginawa ng parokya na naglabas kaagad ng pahayag sa pangyayari na kung saan sila ay humingi ng “paumanhin” sa pangyayaring “nagdulot ng lungkot at pagkabigla.” Tama na sana mga iyon pero ang haba ng kanilang pahayag na mayroong Inggles at Filipino.

*Larawan kuha ni Lara Jameson on Pexels.com*

Hindi siguro nila naunawaan ang gawi ng social media. Hindi mapipigilan ang mga tao sa pagpapalaganap ng ano mang viral video lalo na kung pari o taong mayroong sinasabi ang sangkot. Kapag lumabas na sa social media, mahirap nang habulin. Higit sa lahat, maigsi lang ang pahayag para kagat agad, wika nga.

Sa halip ng mahabang paliwanag sa pangyayari, mas mainam na nagpahayag na lamang ng pagsisisi, ng pag-amin sa pagkakamali. No ifs, no buts sabi sa Inggles. Wala nang saysay ipaliwanag pa ang buong pangyayari dahil marami pa ring masasabi kung paano sana iyon naiwasan.

Hindi lamang ito ang pagkakataon na nag-viral kaming mga pari sa social media at sa kabila ng pagkakamali at pagkakasala, hindi makita ang taos pusong pagsisisi dahil palaging mayroong paliwanag.

Nasaan ang kadalisayan ng paghingi ng paumanhin kung agad namang susundan ng paliwanag? Ganyan din sa kumpisalan: palaging may paliwanag mga tao sa pagkakasala. E… ano ba talaga? Nagtitika ba tayo sa ating kasalanan kung mayroon tayong paliwanag at palusot sa tuwina?

Ipagpatawad ng mga kapatid kong pari pero aminin natin ito ang malaki nating problema lalo na sa Pilipinas: palagi na lamang mayroong paliwanag at pagtatanggol sa mga paring nagkakamali at nagkakasala. Hindi ba?

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda, Sacred Heart Novitiate, Novaliches, QC, 17 Marso 2025.*

Sapat-sapat na ang isang tunay at tapat na pag-amin at paghingi ng paumanhin o tawad sa kamalian at kasalanan.

Hindi ko sinasabing ipako sa krus ang nagkakasalang pari. Ang problema, wala tayong hinarap at tinapos na kaso ng pang-aabuso ng kapangyarihan maski sa atin-atin man lamang.

Bakit ang hirap sa amin na humingi lang ng tawad na sa obispo o kapwa pari, o mga parokyanong nasaktan?

Marahil hirap kaming umamin dahil ang tiwala namin ay nasa aming sarili tulad ni Judas Iscariote at hindi kay Kristo.

Hanggang sa huli tulad na Judas Iscariote, halos kami ay magbigti, hindi matanggap ang katotohanan na kulang kami sa pagtitiwala kay Jesus.

Hindi kami makapagtiwala ng lubos kay Jesus di lamang sa Kanyang hatid na kapatawaran kungdi sa kanyang liwanag at karunungan upang malampasan ano mang kasamaan at pagkakamali na aming nagawa. Duda kami kay Jesus baka hindi umamin aming nakaaway. Duda kami kay Jesus na madiriin kaming lalo e kalabaligtaran ang nangyayari kadalasan.

Tingnan paano sa mga sumunod na mga balita, maraming mga tao nagpahayag pa rin ng pag-unawa at suporta kay Father. Iyan ang biyayang nalilimutan naming mga pari palagi – higit pa rin ang tiwala at pag-galang ng mga tao sa pari.

Ito ang malaking kaibahan ni Simon Pedro kay Judas Iscariote: bagaman walang sinasaad sa mga ebanghelyo ng kanyang pag-amin man lang sa kasalanang itinatwa niya si Jesus, maliwanag ang kanyang pagsisisi at pagtitiwala sa Panginoong muling nabuhay doon sa may lawa nang tatlong ulit siyang tanungin ng “Simon, anak ni Juan, iniibig mo ba ako?”.

Pagmasdan na pagkatapos umamin si San Pedro sa kanyang tatlong ulit na pagtatatwa at masabi kay Jesus na “Opo iniibig kita” saka lamang siya sinabihan ng Panginoong “sumunod ka sa akin” (Jn. 21:15-19). Marahil ay nagyakap ang Panginoon at si Simon Pedro pagkatapos noon at nagbigayan ng halik ng kapayapaan gaya ng kaugalian ng mga Judio.

Kung mayroong halik Judas, mayroong halik ng kapayapaan ni Kristo tulad sa Banal na Misa kung saan mayroong pagkakasundo ang dating nagkaalitan o nagkasamaan ng loob.

Yaong katagang pagkakasundo ay napakayaman sa kahulugan. Hindi ba kapag tayo ay susundo sa airport o saan man, kailangan nating iwanan ating kinaroroonan upang tayo ay magtagpo? Ang pagkakasundo o reconciliation sa Ingles ay ganun din: iwanan natin ang nakaraang pangyayari upang tayo ay magtagpo at magkasundo, magkaisa at muling mabalik dating mabuting samahan. Tingnan ang daloy ng pag-amin at paghingi ng tawad siyang naghahatid sa pagkakasundo at saka lamang magkakaroon ng pagsunod kay Kristo. O kanino mang ating natraydor.

Inyong subukan ngayong mga Mahal na Araw upang malubos inyong kagalakan sa Pasko ng Pagkabuhay. Amen.

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda, 14 Abril 2025.*

Ang Pasyon sa buhay-pananampalataya nating mga Pilipino

Lawiswis ng Salita ni P. Nicanor F. Lalog II, Ika-15 ng Abril 2025

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda, taunang Pabasa ng Lunes Santo sa Parokya ng Pambansang Dambana ng Fatima, Valenzuela City, 14 Abril 2025.*

Para sa mga tulad ko na promdi – laking probinsiya – ang mga Mahal na Araw ay pinababanal ng magdamagan at maghapong Pabasa ng Pasyon ng ating Panginoong Jesu-Kristo.

Sa katunayan, isa ito sa mga eksenang aking kinagisnan mula pagkabata kaya taun-taon, ako man ay bumabasa ng Pasyon lalo na noong buhay pa aking ina at kami man ay nagpapabasa sa aming bahay sa Bocaue, Bulacan. Tuwing ganitong panahon, hinahanap ng aking katawan ang pagbasa ng Pasyon kaya noong isang taon, dumayo ako sa dati kong parokya.

Anong laki at bagong kaalaman ang aking nabatid noon!

Ito palang mga salita ng ating unang Santo na si San Lorenzo Ruiz ay kanyang kinuha sa Pasyon!

Batay sa ating kaalaman, sinabi ni San Lorenzo noon sa harapan ng kanyang mga taga-usig sa Japan na “isang libong buhay man ang ibigay sa kanya, isang libong ulit niyang iaalay ang mga ito sa ating Panginoong Jesu-Kristo.”

Nguni’t, pagmasdan ninyo itong aking nabatid sa Pasyon:

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda, Biyernes Santo, 2024.*

Batay sa tradisyon, si Longinus na tinuturing dito sa Pasyon na Longino ang sundalong Romano na umulos ng sibat sa tagiliran ni Jesus habang nakabayubay doon sa krus; mula sa sugat na iyon dumaloy ang dugo at tubig sa Kanyang tagiliran na siyang bukal ng habag at awa ng Diyos sa sangkatauhan (fount of Divine Mercy).

Para sa akin, isang magandang katotohanan ang sinasaad ng bahaging ito ng Pasyon: maaring bukod sa bibliya at katesismo, bumabasa rin ng Pasyon noon at marahil katulad ng ilan hanggang ngayon, kabisado ito ni San Lorenzo Ruiz kayat nausal niya mga pananalitang iyon.

Dito rin nating makikita na sa kabila ng maraming kamalian at mga samo’t saring bagay na kailangang isaayos sa Pasyon, malaki rin ang papel nito sa paghubog sa ating pananampalatayang Kristiyano.

Maituturing ang Pasyon ay isa sa mga una at malalaking hakbang ng inculturation ng Kristiyanidad sa kalinangang Pilipino.

Nagsimula ang Pasyon sa tradisyon ng mga katekista na sinusugo ng mga pari noon sa malalayong lugar upang samahan sa pananalangin ang mga naghihingalo. Bahagi rin ito ng tinaguriang “pa-Jesus”, mga paulit-ulit na panalangin tulad ng litanya habang ipinagdarasal ang naghihingalo. Kaya ang tagpo ay mula sa pagpapakasakit at kamatayan o Pasyon ng Panginoon ang ginagamit. Humaba ito ng isang aklat dahil naman sa kadalasan inaabot ng magdamag o maghapon ang paghihingalo bago tuluyang malagot ang hininga.

Mahalagang alisin sa isipan ng karamihan na hindi talambuhay ni Jesus ang Pasyon. Hindi rin ito lahat mula sa mga tagpo sa Bibliya habang ang ilang mga kuwento ay halaw sa tradisyon. Una itong tinipon at pinagsama-sama bilang aklat ni G. Gaspar Aquino de Belen, isang makata na tagasalin buhat sa Rosario, Batangas noong 1703 na inaprubahan ng mga kinauukulan sa Simbahan nang sumunod na taon.

Hindi maikakaila na maraming Pilipino noon namulat sa Krstiyanidad dahil na rin sa Pasyon dahil na magiliw na pamamaraan nito ng paglalahad ng mga aral at kuwento ng pakanta. Kaya naman nang malaunan sa paglaganap nito, isinaayos na rin ito batay sa kautusan ng mga obispo at pari habang mayroong ilang sipi na mismong gawa ng pari.

Sa sawimpalad, hindi naisaayos maraming kamalian nitong Pasyon. Kinausap ko aking kaibigan at kaklase na bumabasa rin ng Pasyon, si P. Ed Rodriguez at narito dalawang halimbawa aniya na dapat ayusin sa Pasyon:

At sa Henesis na libro,
Nalalaman ay ganito:
Nang lalangin itong mundo
Nitong Diyos na totoo,
Kaarawan ng Domingo.

Paliwanag: ang sinasabi lamang po sa Henesis ay “dumating ang kinagabihan at sumunod ang umaga, ang unang araw”. Wala pa pong pangalan ang mga araw ng sanlinggo noong isulat ang Henesis.

Gayon din naman, maraming kamalian ang sinasaad sa Pasyon ukol sa Mahal na Birheng Maria na malayo sa katotohanan katulad nito ayon kay Fr. Ed:

Sa maganap ang totoo
At araw ay mahusto
ng ipanganak na ito,
Agad dinala sa templo
Si Mariang masaklolo.

Hindi naman po inaalay sa templo ang anak na babae ng mga Hudyo; ang panganay na lalaki lamang ang inihahandog sa templo katulad ni Jesus na ating ipinagdiriwang sa Candelaria o Pebrero dos.

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda, taunang Pabasa ng Lunes Santo sa Parokya ng Pambansang Dambana ng Fatima, Valenzuela City, 14 Abril 2025*; imahen ng Dolorosa, ang nahahapis na Birheng Maria.

Marami pang ibang dapat itama at isaayos sa Pasyon upang higit natin itong mapangalagaan at mapanatili sapagkat isa itong buhay na patunay ng ating maganda at Kristiyanong kalinangan.

Nakatutuwa na maraming parokya ang nagpapabasa na sa ngayon upang maituro at maipagpatuloy ito ng mga bagong henerasyon. Tama ang maraming diyosesis na mayroong mga alituntuning itinakda sa pagbasa o pag-awit ng Pasyon: hangga’t maari ay huwag itong gawing biro na kung saan inilalapat ang mga makabagong tono ng tugtugin lalo na yaong mabibilis at mahaharot. Dapat palaging isaalang-alang ang kasagraduhan nitong Pasyon na tumutukoy sa pagpapakasakit at pagkamatay ni Jesus.

Gayun din naman, nagtuturo ang Pasyon ng kaisahan ng pamilya at pamayanan kaya dapat ito ipagpatuloy at palaganapin. Maraming pamilya noon maging hanggang ngayon ang nagkakaisa na basahin ng buong mag-anak ang Pasyon bilang tradisyon at panata nila.

Sakali mang mayroong pampublikong pabasa, maaring paghatian ng mga pamilya ang gastos sa pagkain kaya sa maraming bayan at barrio, hinahati ang aklat ng Pasyon sa dalawang pamilya para hindi mabigat ang pagpapakain sa mga tao.

Gayon din naman, ang pagkain o handa sa pabasa ay tinatawag na caridad o charity – bukod sa pagpapakain sa mga bumabasa, naghahanda ang nagpapabasa upang pakainin din yaong mga maliliit nating kapatid na dukha at kapus-palad. Nakakalungkot lamang na mayroong mga tao ang inaabuso ang caridad sa pabasa na nilulusob ng mga tinaguriang “PG”.

Hindi pa kay gandang halimbawa ito ng pagbubuklod ng mga pamilya at angkan?

Higit sa lahat, nabubuklod ang pamayanan ng pabasa ng Pasyon dahil mayroong schedule ang mga pabasa. Hindi basta-basta maaring magpabasa sa isang nayon dahil sa bawat araw, isa lang ang pabasa na maaring ganapin para isa lamang ang pupuntahan. Kaya nga noong araw sa mga nayon kay gandang balikan itong kaisahang ito ng mga kababayan natin tuwing panahon ng mga Mahal na Araw.

Bukod tangi ang pamamaraan ng pabasa ng Pasyon dahil ito ay makata o patula na inaawit, nakakaaliw lalo na kung nakasaliw sa musika.

*Larawan kuha ng may-akda, taunang Pabasa ng Lunes Santo sa Parokya ng Pambansang Dambana ng Fatima, Valenzuela City, 14 Abril 2025*; imahen ng Ecce Homo, si Jesus nang iharap ni Pilato sa mga tao matapos ipahagupit.

Isang kakaibang paraan ng pagtuturo o pedagogy na magaan at madaling matutunan at higit sa lahat, kaagad nadarama.

Kung baga, mayroong kurot sa puso at kalooban kaya nanunuot ang mga turo at aral. Isipin na lamang natin paanong nakatulong itong Pasyon maging sa ating unang Santo na si San Lorenzo Ruiz na sa kanyang kamatayan ang mga namutawi sa kanyang mga labi ay buhat sa Pasyon.

Sa inyong pag-uwi sa inyong mga lalawigan ngayong Mahal na Araw, sikaping bumasa ng Pasyo upang maranasan ang lalim ng ating pananampalataya at kagandahan ng ating kalinangan.

Narito dalawang video ng aming pabasa kahapon, Lunes Santo dito sa Parokya ng Pambansang Dambana ng Fatima sa lungsod ng Valenzuela. Buhat sa bayan ng Malabon ang aming nakuhang musiko sa tumugtog mula ika-pito ng gabi hanggang ika-sampu ng gabi.

“My Ever ChangingMoods” (1984) by the Style Council

Lord My Chef Sunday Music by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 13 April 2025

Today we begin the Holy Week with the celebration of Palm Sunday in the Lord’s Passion.

See how since the entry of Jesus to Jerusalem more than 2000 years ago, nothing much have really changed among us – we are still the same fickle-minded people who would sing “Hosanna in the highest” and later shout “crucify him! crucify him!”.

Everybody wants to become better, each one wishing for so many things without really realizing the good things we are hoping for are all right in front us if we could just open our eyes or listen more or perhaps have a change of heart to realize everyday is a Palm Sunday too for us when God comes right into us to fulfill us.

However, many times whether in our wishful thinking or future-looking and planning, it is highly probable that what we long for is already present to us.

As we begin the Holy Week with the celebration of Palm Sunday in the Lord’s Passion, we are reminded by the liturgy with its long readings how so often in life, we just need to see with different eyes, hear with different ears, expect with different hearts to find fulfillment, peace and joy.

The sad truth is that many times, we really do not know what we want and most of all, we also do not know what we are doing because we are so far from Jesus Christ. https://lordmychef.com/2025/04/12/when-we-do-not-know-what-we-are-doing/

The night before I wrote my homily yesterday, I was posting some reels in my Instagram account when one of the music I used was the Style Council’s 1984 hit “My Ever Changing Moods”. Composed by the group founder Paul Weller who shot to fame in the 1970’s as lead singer and guitarist of the British rock band The Jam, “My Ever Changing Moods” is the Style Council’s fifth single.

Aside from Weller’s superb vocals, “My Ever Changing Moods” is so remarkable in what shall we describe as “subtle intensity” – ang tindi ng dating as we say. Despite the message conveyed by its title, the song is heavy in meanings that can stir one’s soul with its light and easy poetry yet so penetrating. That is why we right away felt its direct link with Palm Sunday.

Daylight turns to moonlight and I'm at my best
Praising the way it all works, and gazing upon the rest, yeah
The cool before the warm, the calm after the storm
The cool before the warm, the calm after the storm

I wish to stay forever, letting this be my food
Oh, but I'm caught up in a whirlwind
And my ever changing moods, yeah

Many times in life, we forget that reality of how everything is like the weather that shifts and changes in a rhythmic pattern, “Daylight turns to moonlight…the cool before the warm, the calm after the storm.” The key is openness to these changes happening in us and around us.

Though Weller and critics claim of the song’s political undertones, we see something deeper, something spiritual that we find it so appropriate in this time as we enter the holiest days of the year. Notice these final four stanzas how they convey love and order, something so similar to Jesus Christ’s first words when crucified more than 2000 years ago, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do” (Lk.23:24).

Teardrops turn to children who've never had the time
To commit the sins they pay for through another's evil mind
The love after the hate, the love we leave too late
The love after the hate, the love we leave too late

I wish we'd wake up one day, an' everyone feel moved
Oh, but we're caught up in the dailies
And an ever changing mood, yeah

Evil turns to statues and masses form a line
But I know which way I'd run to, if the choice was mine
The past is knowledge, the present our mistake
And the future we always leave too late

I wish we'd come to our senses and see there is no truth
In those who promote the confusion
For this ever changing mood, yeah

What do we really know at all that we continue to crucify Jesus today, nailing him on the cross with our many sins as we pretend and assume to know so many things in life?

To know in the Jewish mind is to have a relationship, an activity more of the heart than of the mind. To know is to love, to care. Therefore, when Jesus prayed to the Father to forgive them for they know not what they do is to forgive them because they refuse to love which is what sin is all about. And that is what we still do not know until now – to love, to care for one another that we keep on crucifying Jesus Christ.

Until now, we pretend to know a lot that some nations resort to wars while some blind followers insist on what they know as right while evading the truth with their fake news being spread to cover crimes and atrocities. Until now we pretend to know what we are doing that everyday everywhere is a road rage happening often costing lives senselessly because many insist on their rights. And the confusions and quarrels and deaths continue because we do not know what we are doing. Like Paul Weller, we pray to Jesus that we’d come to our senses and see there is no truth// In those who promote the confusion// For this ever changing mood, yeah.

For this piece, we chose the slow version on piano of Style Council’s “My Ever Changing Moods” to be more attuned with Palm Sunday; you may check their original music video which is equally excellent.

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“I Don’t Know How to Love Him” (1971) by Yvonne Elliman

Lord My Chef Sunday Music by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 06 April 2025

This is the second time we have featured Ms. Yvonne Elliman’s I Don’t Know How to Love Him in our Sunday Music at this time of the year when the Sunday gospel is about the woman caught committing adultery.

Every time that story comes up, my mind automatically links it with this song sang by Ms. Elliman in both the Broadway and movie versions of the rock-opera Jesus Christ, Superstar where she played the role as Mary Magdalene who was believed for a long time as the woman caught committing adultery. Modern biblical scholarships have long debunked that belief but that song by Andrew Lloyd Weber and Tim Rice plus Elliman’s amazing interpretation has given us with so many perspectives about the gospel itself.

One thing we realized this year is how we – like the woman caught committing adultery meet Jesus Christ face-to-face to experience his immense love and mercy and forgiveness.

We encounter Jesus when we disarm ourselves of our false securities and pretenses, masks and camouflages that all cover our sins. It is when we come face-to-face with our sinful self when we eventually meet Jesus face-to-face too because that is when we surrender in silence like the woman caught in adultery and the mob to some degree because all the charges against us are true.

See also that it is only the fourth gospel that Jesus is portrayed “bending” low – first here before the woman caught committing adultery and secondly at the washing of the feet of his Apostles at their Last Supper. How lovely is that sight to behold, dear friends! Imagine God bending before us, giving us like the sinful woman and the mob that space for us to confront our true self, to realize and accept the whole realities we are all interconnected in love.

Only the woman remained – like the eleven Apostles at the Last Supper – because she was the only one willing to change, probably sorrowful and contrite for her sins. Contrary to our fears, Jesus has only love and mercy, kindness and forgiveness to anyone contrite and sorrowful of one’s sin that so unlike with the people’s wrath and anger, judgment and condemnation. St. Augustine perfectly described that moment in today’s gospel, Relicti sunt duo; misera et miserecordia (Two were left; misery and mercy). https://lordmychef.com/2025/04/05/lent-is-encountering-jesus/

Now, look at the first two stanzas of I Don’t Know How to Love Him:

I don't know how to love him
What to do, how to move him
I've been changed, yes really changed
In these past few days
When I've seen myself
I seem like someone else

I don't know how to take this
I don't see why he moves me
He's a man
He's just a man
And I've had so many
Men before
In very many ways
He's just one more

See the conversion and transformation of the woman caught in adultery expressed by Ms. Elliman in the song: I’ve been changed, yes really changed/ In these past few days/ When I’ve seen myself/ I seem like someone else. It is one of the great ironies in life: when we are most vulnerable and weakest, that is when we are also most truest to our self, that is when we truly grow and mature in life!

And this was all possible because of the gift of love and mercy of Jesus Christ, of encountering the Lord and Savior Himself in our own brokenness which the song and the singer captured so perfectly, He’s just a man/ And I’ve had so many men before/ In very many ways/ He’s just one more.

How amazing that the lyrics and the rendition blended perfectly, making us realize how Jesus is just like any other man but not just another additional man; Jesus is MORE than any one because He is the only who truly loves us most, offering us forgiveness once we strip ourselves naked before Him of all our sins and pride and pretensions. God’s love in Jesus Christ is beyond imagining. This we have seen in the parable of the prodigal son and now in the story of the woman caught committing adultery. Do not let your past sins prevent you from meeting Jesus face-to-face to finally experience that inner peace and joy you have been missing and searching for so long.

We are now in the final Sunday in Lent, next week is Palm Sunday, the start of the Holy Week. We can never experience the joy of Easter unless we join Christ’s Passion of emptying ourselves of sins and pride to be filled with His humility, justice and love.

Here is the lovely Ms. Elliman with her superb singing of I Don’t Know How to Love Him, hoping this helps you prepare in this final week of Lent.

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Lent is encountering Jesus

40 Shades of Lent by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Fifth Sunday in Lent, Cycle C, 06 April 2025
Isaiah 43:16-21 + Philippians 3:8-14 + John 8:1-11

*Photo by author, Sacred Heart Novitiate Main Chapel, 17 March 2025.*

Our gospel on this last Sunday in Lent is so similar in its beauty and simplicity -and drama – with last week’s parable of the prodigal son. In fact, some believe the style of the woman caught in adultery is very much like Luke but, let’s leave that to the experts.

On this beautiful Sunday, it is John’s turn to invite us to enter into the scene of his story set at the temple area shortly before the arrest of Jesus Christ.

Jesus went to the Mount of Olives. But early in the morning he arrived again in the temple area, and all the people started coming to him, and he sat down and taught them. Then the scribes and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in adultery and made her stand in the middle (John 8:1-3).

*Photo by author, Sacred Heart Novitiate, 17 March 2025.*

Try entering the scene. See the woman who most likely almost naked draped only in a piece of cloth as proof of her committing adultery. The Pharisees and the scribes were ganging up on her to Jesus whom they wanted to test, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the very act of committing adultery. Now in the law, Moses commanded us to stone such women. So what do you say?”

Imagine being there, standing close to Jesus and the woman. How would you feel? Would you be able to look at the woman straight on her face? Nah… seems not good. Perhaps, glance only as you feel also her pain and shame. But, can you look straight at the angry mob? Probably for a while with much fears and trepidation along with a deep anger within you cannot express.

Most likely, it is only at Jesus you can look intently and longer because he is not looking at you. Tensions were rising and Jesus simply bent down, writing something on the ground with his finger while the Pharisees and scribes raised up their attacks against him and the lowly woman standing listlessly, so embarrassed, so ashamed. Even in tears.

Recall those moments when we too were caught in the midst of an undeniable transgression like her or, simply being a witness, someone caught in between of another person without any way out of his/her predicament. It must be so dark. So scary. And shameful.

Then, the unexpected happened: But when they continued asking him, he (Jesus) straightened up and said to them, “Let the one among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” Again he bent down and wrote on the ground. and in response, they went away one by one, beginning with the elders. So he was left alone with the woman before him (John 8:7-9).

Many times, we encounter Jesus in our most vulnerable situation when we let go of our guards so to speak.

It is one of the great ironies in life: when we are most vulnerable and weakest, that is when we are also most truest to our self. And that is when we truly grow and mature in life.

That is when we feel peace and joy and freedom within when we are left alone with Jesus still looking down, writing with his finger on the ground to give us more space literally and figuratively speaking. It is not that Jesus wants to shame us or whatever but simply wants us to be true as he has always been true to us, full of love and mercy. Most of all, with all of Christ’s humility in bending, that is when we finally admit the need for a Savior, the need to be converted in him.

We encounter Jesus when we disarm ourselves of our false securities and pretenses, masks and camouflages that all cover our sins. It is when we come face-to-face with our sinful self when we eventually meet Jesus face-to-face too because that is when we surrender in silence like the woman caught in adultery and the mob to some degree because all the charges against us are true.

See also that it is only the fourth gospel that Jesus is portrayed “bending” low – first here before the woman caught committing adultery and secondly at the washing of the feet of his Apostles at their Last Supper. How lovely is that sight to behold, dear friends! Imagine God bending before us, giving us like the sinful woman and the mob that space for us to confront our true self, to realize and accept the whole realities we are all interconnected in love.

Only the woman remained – like the eleven Apostles at the Last Supper – because she was the only one willing to change, probably sorrowful and contrite for her sins. Contrary to our fears, Jesus has only love and mercy, kindness and forgiveness to anyone contrite and sorrowful of one’s sin that so unlike with the people’s wrath and anger, judgment and condemnation. St. Augustine perfectly described that moment in today’s gospel, Relicti sunt duo; misera et miserecordia (Two were left; misery and mercy).

Then Jesus straightened up and said to her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” She replied, “No one, sir.” Then Jesus said, “Neither do I condemn you. Go, and from now on do not sin anymore” (John 8:10-11).

*Stations of the Cross, Fatima University & Medical Center, Valenzuela City, 28 March 2025.*

We are now on the final Sunday of Lent. Next week will be the Palm Sunday of the Lord’s Passion that ushers in the Holy Week leading to the Sacred Triduum of Holy Thursday Evening, Good Friday and Easter Vigil and on to the Mother of all Feasts, Easter.

As we get closer to the holiest week of the year, our liturgy invites us to intensify our Lenten practices to be “conformed to Christ’s death” as St. Paul urged us in the second reading which opened with these beautiful confession:

“Brothers and sisters: I consider everything as a loss because of the supreme good of knowing Christ Jesus as my Lord. For his sake I have accepted the loss of all things and I consider them so much rubbish, that I may gain Christ” (Philippians 3:8).

The pillars of Lent – prayer, fasting and alms-giving – aim to empty us of our very selves, of our pride and sins that all prevent us from encountering Jesus Christ always coming to us full of love and mercy. On this final stretch of Lent, are we ready to let go of ourselves and to let God?

Today, Jesus assures us of his love and forgiveness for our sins. The first reading tells us of God asking us to forget the events of the past. Just come home to him. And never leave him like the woman caught committing adultery. Amen. Have blessed week ahead.

*Stations of the Cross, College of Maritime Engineering, Our Lady of FatIma University, 28 March 2025.*

Lent is remaining true amid confusions

40 Shades of Lent by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Friday, Fourth Week in Lent, 04 April 2025
Wisdom 2:1, 12-22     + + + + +     John 7:2, 10, 25-30

Life indeed is a daily Lent,
Lord Jesus: as we come to close
this fourth week in Lent while entering
its penultimate week, our readings
today show us the reality of life
that can be confusing sometimes.

Jesus moved about within Galilee; but he did not wish to travel in Judea, because the Jews were trying to kill him. But when his brothers had gone up to the feast (of the Tabernacle), he himself also went up, not openly but as it were in secret. Some of the inhabitants of Jerusalem said, “Is he not the one they are trying to kill? And look, he is speaking openly and they say nothing to him” (John 7:1, 10, 25, 26).

Of course,
you were never confused
Lord Jesus
but we your disciples
and almost everyone
including bystanders
are the ones confused:
you moved in secret but
everybody recognized you;
most of all,
threats never deterred you
from speaking what is true,
that the one who sent you
whom many do not know
is true (John 7:28).

The first reading
also gives us an impression
of confusion among peoples,
but never from God;
like what the author of the
Book of Wisdom had written,
the wicked are most confused
though pretending to know all,
plotting against the just
and the believers.

Confusions happen
in Lent
in life
when we refuse to
believe and trust in you,
Jesus;
confusions happen
in Lent
in life
when we disregard
you who is truth himself,
when we choose
not to love.

Teach us Jesus
that truth is not just
an object
an objective reality
of concurrence what is in our
mind and what is outside but
most of all
truth is a person,
when we accept you
wholly among those around
us especially the needy
and disadvantaged.
Amen.

“I Keep Forgettin’ (Everytime You’re Near)” by Michael McDonald

Lord My Chef Sunday Music by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, 30 March 2025

*Photo by author, ceiling lights, Canyon Woods Resort, Batangas, 16 March 2025*

Glad to be back dear friends with our Sunday music featuring secular music that echoes the good news of Jesus Christ. So excited with today’s feature because it is by one of our favorite musicians, Michael McDonald.

McDonald is that most unique voice in many of Steely Dan’s hits in the early 70’s where he got recognized, thus becoming the most sought partner of other great artists like Christopher Cross before settling with the Doobie Brothers with their signature song What A Fool Believes.

After leaving the Doobies in the early 80’s, McDonald came up with his first solo album called If That’s What It Takes from which came out our featured song I Keep Forgettin’ in 1982.

I keep forgettin' we're not in love anymore
I keep forgettin' things will never be the same again
I keep forgettin' how you made that so clear
I keep forgettin'

Everytime you're near
Everytime I see you smile
Hear your "hello"
Saying you can only stay a while

And I know that it's hard for you
To say the things that we both know are true
But tell me how come

While praying over our beautiful gospel this fourth Sunday in Lent (Laetare or Rejoice Sunday), I could hear McDonald singing this lovely song at the back of my mind that became the inspiration for our Sunday homily:

We do not tell God and our family and friends that we don’t love them but our walking away from them tells that so clearly. However, as we refuse to love when we sin, that is also when we deny the love right in our hearts, that we cannot stop loving because whatever we take after we have left are actually the very love of God and of our family and friends!

There is nothing truly ours in this world and because of God’s Mystery, we never lose His gift of love within us that when things get worst in our lives, it is the same love that gives us the spark to hope and believe again. It was that love that the youngest son missed and realized despite all his dramas as he went home to his loving father just like us too (https://lordmychef.com/2025/03/29/mystery-of-god-mystery-of-sin/).

Can we really forget or delete permanently a love that is especially so true, so great? In the parable of the prodigal son heard in churches this Sunday, Jesus reminds us that every time we sin – that is, when we refuse to love – we deny His very love in our hearts that remains there, only to be recognized or rediscovered by us when we are down like the prodigal son. That love of God we keep denying eventually is the very same love that gives us the spark to hope and believe again when we realized the foolishness we have done with our sins.

In this song by McDonald, we are reminded too of the same truth: we cannot forget nor deny the love we have especially to a beloved sweetheart even if things do not turn out well, when we part ways because our relationship wouldn’t work. The love remains there, is it not? Most often, we simply mature in our perceptions and relationships and yes, love because that love remains there.

How much more with God’s love?

Now, imagine Jesus Chris singing this McDonald hit?

And yes, that’s how He feels for us: God “keeps forgettin’ we’re not in love anymore” when we sin and yet, He keeps blessing us. Because, God simply loves us so much that even if we refuse to love Him, He still loves us, waiting for us to return to him like the loving father in the parable of the prodigal son.

That is why – rightly – the Doobies got another hit called Jesus Is Alright With Me but that’s for another piece perhaps this Holy Week.

Here now is Michael McDonald in his first solo hit, I Keep Forgettin’…. have a blessed, rockin’ week ahead, everyone.

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Lent is not being far from the Kingdom of God

40 Shades of Lent by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Friday, Third Week in Lent, 28 March 2025
Hosea 14:2-10     + + +     Mark 12:28-34

And when Jesus saw that he answered with understanding, he said to him, “You are not far from the Kingdom of God.” And no one dared to ask him any more questions (Mark 12:34).

Lord Jesus,
bring us close 
to the Kingdom of God;
let us return home 
to you
to ourselves
to one another
in love.

We have “collapsed“
due to sin which is 
a refusal to love;
many times we are so concerned 
counting our ways to love
when we just have to love,
love, and love
the way you love us.

Make us realize,
be aware
and most of all,
be convinced of your immense love
for each of us,
a love so unbelievable yet
so real 
so true!

In this season of Lent,
bring us close,
not far from the Kingdom
of God by being more
loving to you in others;
let us get rid of our many
small choices in life
though not really a vice
but has a tinge of selfishness
that eventually make us 
a less loving person
and far from God's Kingdom.
Amen.

Lent is loving like God

40 Shades of Lent by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Third Week in Lent, Cycle C, 23 March 2025
Exodus 3:1-8, 13-15 + 1 Corinthians 10:1-6, 10-12 + Luke 13:1-9

Thank you very much for all your birthday greetings yesterday, my 60th. Until now my heart overflows in joy from your expressions of love to me that confirmed God loves me so much in the most personal manner. Hence, my firm resolve in these senior years of my life to be able to love like God, to desire always the Cross for the love of our Crucified Lord Jesus Christ.

Yes, it is very ambitious, too idealistic but, that is God’s love for each one of us! Jesus became human like us so we may finally experience God’s immense love for each of us. And that is the invitation of Lent to us – that we go back to God, our very first love. Very often, we experience that very personal love of God for us in the desert of our lives when we are in darkness and emptiness like Moses in today’s first reading.

Moses was tending the flock of his father-in-law Jethro, the priest of Midian. Leading the flock across the desert, he came to Horeb, the mountain of God. There an angel of the Lord appeared to Moses in fire flaming out of a bush. As he looked on, he was surprised to see that the bush, though on fire, was not consumed (Exodus 13:1-2).

Fire is a very powerful sign not only in the Holy Bible but in every culture for the warmth it generates and the light it illuminates the surrounding. Fire signifies power because of its unique abilities to cleanse, purify and transform materials into something better. It is history’s most significant discovery of all time, facilitating our growth and development as peoples and nations with the advent of cooking that gave us food that delights and nourishes us.

That is the fiery love God has for each one of us we often find when we least expected like Moses in the first reading. Moses ended up in the wilderness tending sheep after fleeing from Egypt when he learned it was widely known that he had murdered an Egyptian maltreating a Hebrew slave.

What a beautiful image here of God’s love so fiery yet not burning us! In the burning bush, God revealed Himself as the omnipresent One always with us we are rarely aware of. There in the burning bush, God also reminded Moses and us today how this whole planet Earth is a sacred ground, His dwelling-place that we keep on desecrating with our sins.

And there lies the great paradox of our lives where God lighting us, straightening our crooked path to help us find our way back to Him, to life and to meaning. God is the fire burning the impurities in us without us knowing in many instances while He prevents us from being consumed like the burning bush. In fact, many times unknown to us, the fires of our failures and disappointments, pains and trials have actually brought out the best in us. Unconsciously to us, we are like the burning bush aflame with God’s fiery love that transforms us into better persons and more committed disciples of Christ.

Some people told Jesus about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mingled with the blood of their sacrifices. Jesus said to them in reply, “Do you think that because those Galileans suffered in this way they were greater sinners than all the other Galileans? by no means! But I tell, if you do not repent, you will perish as they did! Or those eighteen people who were killed when the tower of Siloam fell on them – do you think they were more guilty than everyone else who lived in Jerusalem? By no means! But I tell you, if you do not repent, you will perish as they did!” (Luke 13:1-5)

How timely is our gospel today, reminding us to go deeper into our very selves, into those dark places in our hearts to realize too God’s message to us in the light of recent turn of events in the country.

What a mess we are now into that we easily blame on others except us. We have become so divided as a nation that we have refused to find the face of God, choosing to remain in the level of personalism and worst, of politics.

Sin is not just a turning away from God nor a breaking of any law but a complete refusal to love. When there is no love, there is no trust, there is no other person, there is no God. Just one’s self. Sin, therefore, is selfishness, the thinking more of one’s self, not of others.

That was the very sin of the people after the exodus when they refused to love one another, grumbling against Moses and even God most of the time. St. Paul has a grim reminder to each of us this Sunday as he recalled that desert experience of the Israelites when he wrote:

I do no want you to be unaware, brothers and sisters, that our ancestors were all under the cloud and all passed through the sea… Yet God was not pleased with most of them, for they were struck down in the desert. These things happened as examples for us, so that we might not desire evil things, as they did. Therefore, whoever thinks he is standing secure should take not to fall (1 Corinthians 10:1, 5-6, 12).

Five years ago I celebrated my birthday on a Sunday, the fifth in Lent just before Palm Sunday. That was very memorable to me because it was the first Sunday during the COVID lockdown when public Masses were prohibited.

That afternoon, I decided to go on a motorized procession of the Blessed Sacrament around my parish with a handful of our parish volunteers using a borrowed F-150 truck of a generous parishioner. Oh how the people knelt while lining up the main highway and inner streets as we passed by with the Blessed Sacrament.

Halfway through our libot, it started to rain but I instructed my companions to still go on even if it there would be a downpour. As we approached the last purok of our parish, I saw a rainbow. And cried as I felt God telling me at that moment like Noah after the floods that He would not forsake us in that time of COVID.

God kept that promise until I left Parokya ni San Juan Ebanghelista in Bagbaguin, Sta. Maria, Bulacan that was the least affected barangay by COVID in the whole town during my term.

Reflecting on that scene of Moses before the burning bush, I remembered that rainbow during my 55th birthday at the start of the COVID pandemic and lockdown. God often comes to us in many disguises, enlightening us to see the present situation we are into especially when it is all dark. It is the time we look inside our hearts to find God and experience His love; if we can’t find God or feel His love, let us be converted. Let us do penance as Jesus told the people in the gospel. Only with a contrite heart that one can truly find love again because being sorry for one’s sin is the beginning of loving.

That is the surest sign of God’s love for us – when everything especially us and our relationships become visibly clear , no matter how slowly it may be, one step at a time. The more we experience the love of God, the more we resolve to love; that is when this life and world become brighter. Let us love like God by returning to Him in His love. Amen. Have a blessed week ahead.