Thomas, our twin?

Lord My Chef Daily Recipe for the Soul, 03 July 2025
Thursday, Feast of St. Thomas the Apostles
Ephesians 2:19-22 <*{{{{>< + ><}}}}*> John 20:24-29
Caravaggio’s painting “The Incredulity of St. Thomas” (1602) from en.wikipedia.org.
Lord Jesus,
teach me to be like you -
so understanding,
so caring,
so loving
to those who are doubting
you like Thomas your Apostle;
poor Thomas -
he has been called "Doubting"
when the evangelists simply
referred to him as "Didymus"
or twin; however, it is so lovely
too to know that doubt and
certainty are like twins because
when we doubt,
the more we seek and find
the truth which Thomas did.
When I think of my own faith
journey in you, Lord,
many times I was worst
than St. Thomas for I was not only
doubting you
but also hesitant in following you
because of fears and mistrust,
lack of confidence in my self,
and simply self-centered.
Could it be, Lord,
that in each one of us is
Thomas our twin -
doubting,
hesitating,
indecisive,
in following you?

Now a week later his disciples were again inside and Thomas was with them. Jesus came, although the doors were locked, and stood in their midst and said, “Peace be with you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and see my hands, and bring your hand and put it into my side, and do not be unbelieving, but believe.” Thomas answered and said to him, “My Lord and my God!” (John 20:26-28).

How nice of you, 
Lord Jesus
to be so warm with Thomas
on that night
when you appeared again;
instead of engaging Thomas
into a debate or discussion,
you called him,
invited him to touch your wounds,
to feel your scars;
what an incredible courage,
Lord Jesus
to let us see and feel
closely your wounds,
to stare and look at your
sufferings, to remember and
imagine your lowest point in life
if only to show us that it is
the only way to glory;
many times, we are afraid
to admit even to ourselves
and to others our wounds and hurts,
preferring to keep them
even hide them
to keep our illusions
of greatness.
May we find 
the graces of
joy and warmth,
love and kindness
that fill our many wounds
in life as a result of our
following you, Lord Jesus
for it is in our woundedness
and hurts that we become
"members of the household of God
who are built together to be
the dwelling place of God
in the Spirit" (Ephesians 2:19, 22).
Amen.

Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Our Lady of Fatima University
Valenzuela City

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Caravaggio’s painting “The Incredulity of St. Thomas” (1602) from en.wikipedia.org.
Sa tuwing maririnig ko
ang kuwento kay Santo Tomas
Apostol ni Kristo,
ako'y nanlulumo dahil
batid ko hindi ayon
turing natin sa kanya
na "Doubting Thomas"
gayong tanging tag-uri
sa kanya ng Ebanghelista
ay "Didymus" o "Kambal";
nag-alinlangan nga si Tomas
sa balitang napakita si Jesus
na muling nabuhay
sa kanyang mga kasama
nguni't kailanma'y
di nabawasan
kanyang paniniwala
at pagtitiwala.
Malaking pagkakaiba
ng hindi maniwala
sa hindi makapaniwala
na isang pag-aalinlangan
bunsod ng kakaibang pakiramdam
tulad ng pagkamangha
o ng tuwang walang pagsidlan
sa isang karanasang napaka-inam
ngunit hindi maintindihan
balot ng hiwaga
at pagpapala
gaya nang mabalitaan
ni Tomas
paanong nakapasok sa
nakapinid na mga
pintuan
Panginoong Jesus
na muling nabuhay.
Katulad ng kanyang
mga kasamahan
nonng kinagabihan ng Linggo
ding iyon,
wala ding pagsidlan
tuwa at kagalakan
ni Santo Tomas
nang sa kanya inilarawan
ipinakitang mga kamay
ni Jesus
taglay pa rin
mga sugat natamo
sa pagpapako sa Krus
nagpapatunay
na Siya nga
ang Panginoong
nagpakasakit at namatay noon,
nabuhay muli ngayon!
Hindi ba 
ganyan din tayo
sa gitna ng ating mga
pag-aalinlangan
bagama't damang dama 
natin ang katotohanan
ng mga pagpapala at biyaya
hindi tayo makapaniwala
sa kadiliman ating natagpuan
liwanag ni Kristo habang sa
kawalan naroon Kanyang
kaganapan at kapunuan?
Sandigang ating pinananaligan
dasal na nausal ni Tomas na
banal pagkakita kay Jesus 
na muling nabuhay,
"Panginoon ko 
at Diyos ko!"
Huwag tayong matakot 
kung tayo ay
mag-alinlangan
at kung minsa'y
hindi makapaniwala
sa mga gawa ng Diyos
na sadyang kahanga-hanga;
sa mundong ito
na ang pinanghahawakang
kasabihan ay
"to see is to believe",
ang kabaligtaran nito
ang siyang katotohanang
ating mapapanaligan,
"believe that you may see"
dahil sa dilim at
kawalan parati dumarating
ang Panginoong Jesus natin!

The gift of doubts

The Lord Is My Chef Daily Recipe for the Soul by Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II
Monday, Feast of St. Thomas, Apostle, 05 July 2023
Ephesians 2:19-22   <*((((>< +++ ><))))*>   John 20:24-29
Caravaggio’s painting “The Incredulity of St. Thomas” (1602) from en.wikipedia.org.
Praise and glory
to you, Lord Jesus Christ,
for always believing in us,
coming to us,
calling us to follow you
despite our doubts and weaknesses
like St. Thomas the Apostle.
Most of all,
thank you dear Lord Jesus
for blessing us who have not
seen you and yet believed in you!

Jesus said to him (Thomas), “Have you come to believe because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and have believed.”

John 20:29
Let me follow you, 
Jesus, for you are "the Way,
the Truth and the Life"
as you have told St. Thomas
at your Last Supper;
like St. Thomas,
comfort me with your presence
and understanding in times of 
insecurities when pains and
disappointments make me doubt;
like St. Thomas, 
give me the courage to conquer
my many doubts in life 
and lead them to outcomes 
brighter than any uncertainties
I often fear needlessly;
like St. Thomas,
let me persevere 
despite the difficulties
of deepening my faith in you
by keeping me close to you,
"my Lord and my God".
Amen.