My dearest God and Father: So often in life, I go into tantrums before you like Jeremiah when things get rough as I try to be faithful to you. You have heard me many nights crying like Jeremiah, “Woe to me, mother, that you gave me birth! a man of strife and contention to all the land! I neither borrow nor lend, yet all curse me. When I found your words, I devoured them; they became my joy and the happiness of my heart, because I bore your name, O Lord, God of hosts.”(Jer.15:10,16)
There are times my mind tells me to abandon your ways of peace, to get even with my enemies but you are always there in my heart, pushing me more than ever to intensely seek you in many difficult situations. Like St. Paul, there is always that urge in me to boast “I am a fool for Christ!”(1Cor.4:10) as I try to understand and forgive, to love and to be kind with people whom I have expected to know me and accept me most.
What a consolation to learn that most saints like Alphonsus Liguori whose feast we celebrate today also went through many rejections in life – even from his fellow Redemptorists like what happened with Jeremiah and your Son Jesus who were rejected by their countrymen.
Sorry, my Lord and my God, for complaining, for the tantrums when I am rejected. You know very well how like St. Augustine my heart is restless until it rests in you. Despite the many rejections as I strive to be faithful to you, I feel like that man in today’s parable who found a treasure buried in a field, hid it again, and left to sell everything to buy that field. Or, like the merchant who found the finest pearl and decided to sell everything he has so he could buy that precious pearl.
Keep me strong, faithful Father, when there are many rejections that come along my way in following you. Amen. Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II,Parokya ng San Juan Apostol at Ebanghelista, Gov. F. Halili Ave., Bagbaguin, Sta. Maria,Bulacan 3022 .
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