God our almighty Father, each day when I begin my day with you, I always wrestle with the same issue: like Job, my illusions about you overshadow your mystery.
Job answered his friends and said: “I know well that it is so, but how can a man be justified before God? Should one wish to contend with him, he could not answer him once in a thousand times… If I appealed to him and he answered my call, I could not believe that he would hearken to my words.” (Job 9:1-3,16)
Give me the grace, O God, to listen to you as YOU ARE NOT AS I WANT YOU TO BE.
So many times my illusions about you prevent me from truly listening from what you are saying to me. Teach me how to revere you, of allowing myself to be wrapped in your mystery so that I may recognize deep within me who you really are and what you really are as my Maker and not as I have “created” in my mind and imagination.
So many times my illusions about you prevent me from properly responding from what you want from me that I end up doing my own will, not yours. Like those people wishing to follow Jesus in today’s gospel, I have illusions of discipleship. Teach me how to revere you by making me set aside my illusions of working for you, instead of doing your work by recognizing you deep within me as my Lord and Master. AMEN. Fr. Nicanor F. Lalog II, Parokya ng San Juan Apostol at Ebanghelista, Gov. F. Halili Ave., Bagbaguin, Sta. Maria, Bulacan 3022.
*Photo by Mr. Raffy Tima of GMA-7 News, Batanes, 17 September 2018. Used with permission.